This is so me... We are only in the beginning of this war and I can't sleep, I am angry, cranky and my health is not 100%...
I guess i feel overwhelmed in the sense that I worry not only about my mom (patient) but my dad (main caregiver) he is there all the time with her, so I come in to make sure he gets the break he needs and she gets the support she needs. I am only there two days out the week, and I feel terrible about that. I can never stay very long after I finish cleaning or whatever because it still hurts to see her so ill and now knowing that it's cancer I have not been able to process it.
I am the only child so it's, my job to take care of my parents and I feel stuck, lost, and confused..
I want to move in, but my mom has already expressed that she wants me to maintain a normal life.. which means keep my job and go to school and keep my place. I am honering her wishes but it's hard.