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Maureen, My dear Earl was the charter member of the 'Empty Head' club. He would want every survivor to be able to join this club in his honor and memory. So hurry up and get those good results. I will be praying for you until you post in good news.

I know I am an old fogey, but I like that the text is wider on the old format (more words per line). All that white space and the narrow colums make it seem like work to read it. It looks great. But reading the posts are difficult for me. Rick and Katie, I do appreciate all your efforts to make this a better and better place.

Yes siree bob, our EAGLES are going to trounce those warm blooded falcons on Sunday. This is the only reason I would like this darn brrrrr cold.

Most important, how wonderful of you to fly your sister in. That is just about the best present you can give your Mother. Secondly, my Mother had a dream that a friend of her's husband had died. It was so real to my Mother that she called her friend. Maybe something similar happened to your building manager. You have to at least know she is kind, if not whiffty.

Absolutely, I think of Earl always. Sometimes he is closer to the front of my mind than others. I feel that my mantra has become his name. Today is the 5 month anniversary and this morning while I was getting ready for work was very tough. As some of you know I am moving, downsizing. Well, I am not going to move Earl's clothes - that doesn't make sense. So yesterday I took a bunch to the thrift store. When I got there, I kind of threw them at them, didn't want to stay and watch and think about it. I sometimes feel like I am throwing little parts of him away. But I know that is nonesense. Whenever I walk into the house I yell, Hi Honey, I'm home. Glad the neighbors can't hear or I would be downsizing to the looney bin. A guy in work bought Earl's old truck. I pat it each morning and say, Hi Sweetie. He is very much alive in my heart and mind. May he please stay that way dear God. I am so afraid I will forget what he sounds like and how we lived. I have many pictures and a video, so I will always know what he looked like but I want the memories of the live Earl. I have lost many of my family, my mother and father and my only two sisters. Sad, you betcha, but nothing like losing my husband. May we all find peace and happiness. And to those surviving may they find good treatments and/or a cure pronto.

Pamm, I am right outside of Philadelphia and I have a commode that was used very infrequently and looks brand new. The hospital supply company will not take commodes back. It is yours it you want it. Just PM me. Hope your Mother does well on Iressa. When it works, it works.

Oh, Ry, I hope Di is not eating a buger for her birthday, with or without a candle. Happy, happy birthday Dianne. May you have many, many happy returns.

Oh, the joys of womanhood.

And we are all behind you Marge.

Boy, Tann, stable and shrinkage - certainly sounds to me like you are moving in the right direction. Keep it up sweetie.

Thank you Rick.

Is anything different after the maintenance? Missed you all. Had withdrawl symptoms.

Dear Paddy, I am 2 1/2 months ahead of you on this lousy grieving. Curtis is so right. Some days or hours or minutes are just fine and then BAM you just disolve into a big heap of tears. Absolutely, spend Christmas with your friends. They would not invite you if your were not wanted. I also find it easier to stop crying if I am with other people. I wave my fingers in front of my eyes when I cry. Seems to help me regain my composure, I have no idea why. This widowhood is not for the weak, it truly stinks. Glo said that it is like you life is in a holding pattern. I find that very accurate. I am on hold, just waiting for Earl to walk back into my life, just as you are waiting for David. The permanance of this is what is so horrible. Don't stop living a life. The busier you are, the better, the less time you have to fall apart. Paddy, if you like PM me your tel # and I will give you a call or ask me for mine and give me a call. Hang tough dear, it is not a fun journey. Love,

Kim, Just a thought. Have you told your Mom how you feel? Or have you called your brother? Maybe if you make the first move ....... It is the season for miracles.

WOW Cheryl, is this your best Christmas present ever?????? Keep us posted minute by minute - this is important news. Hooray for protein. (Now that is something I never thought I would cheer for) Love,