:)Hi, Donna firstly my heart goes out to you for the loss of your husband. It has to be heartbreaking. I lost my Mother not even a year ago July 28, 2014. She was 84 and she had lived with us for the last eight years of her life. We had her on hospice care at the end and I guess I am lucky she took her last breath in my arms but it still breaks my heart every time I think of that moment. She didn't have cancer just a failing heart and I will miss her for the rest of my life. I sometimes am lost around the house without her here. I still haven't managed to touch her room. I was going to start sorting through it in January but being diagnosed with lung cancer sort of changed everything. Yes, I have been receiving chemo treatment since January and it sure seems to be working. I only started radiation treatment two weeks ago. It all really tires me out. Please forgive me if I am wrong but I believe you are a survivor of lung cancer as well as loosing your husband to the disease? I am not sure if I read it correctly? The last year to say the least has been tough for my little family. I have always been the rock and still am trying to be. I drive myself to chemo, radiation, etc... take my daughter to school pick her up, make meals, take care of our four dogs, etc... I did hire a cleaner to come in once a week and help me out. I can't do everything I use to do but I try to do as much as I can on my own keeps me going and not thinking of the fact that I actually have lung cancer. It still breaks my heart because my daughter is so young. My husband travels often we make our living in Chicago. So, for him and her I do my best to keep things as normal as possible. We found out I had lung cancer after being hospitalized on Dec 29 2014 with pneumonia. I had fluid in my lungs and almost a collapsed lung. It was a very difficult time and I will never forget my first night in the hospital it was about midnight and a doctor walked in and informed very matter of fact that I not only had pneumonia but the Cat Scan found I had lung cancer, too! Words none of us wish to hear. I really wanted my mom. I swear every time I go to chemo or radiation she is by my side. I talk to her all the time she was my best friend. Anyway, I am going on and on. I am thankful to meet someone who knows many who have survived. I was told I have a 25% chance and everything I read small cell lung cancer is the worst and very low survival rates. Brings me to tears daily just thinking about it. I really dislike the chemo makes me sick and weak for a good week after it. I start again next week. I can't wait to be cancer free and finished with chemo it is truly horrible to me. Lots of hugs, good health and smiles thank you for listening. Debbie