Debi,
What a well-written post. I see a lot of myself in your story. Once when my Mom was hospitalized,I spoke with her Oncologist who then winked at me at the end of the conversation. I proceeded to disect any possible reason for the wink.I drove my family up a wall about this wink. Naturally, I jumped to the conclusion that a wink to a family member was bad news.I never did determine the meaning of thet wink,but it sure did give me something to think about!
Hugs,
Lynn