I'm trying my best...I really am. However sharing my feelings about the matter isn't an option, I don't talk to him about it because I don't want him to feel that I'm getting hurt because of his condition or that it's causing me pain and confusion. On top of that no one knows about his condition and the 2 other people who know, it's like a taboo to talk about his condition and our feelings about it. That's the reason I came here. To find people who understand and to find people who can actually tell me what to do, and till now it's been a huge help. So thank you all very much I'm very grateful to you all.