My name is Shari and I am a 52 yr old open heart nurse. I am a soon to be 13 year breast cancer survivor. On Labor day I was admitted to the hospital for what we thought was chest pain. Of course being the ICU nurse that I am, I insisted that everything was normal. As I said, everything was normal with my heart. It was a strange meant to be situation I guess. All of my heart tests were normal. My CT scan of my chest showed a small nodule in the right lower lobe of my lung. I am a non-smoker and non-drinker. I have not been around second hand smoke. Long story short, I had a open thoracotomy and a right lower lobectomy for adenocarcinoma. I guess it was a good thing it wasn't mets from the breast. Primary lung cancer though how could that be? One would expect that since I have already gone through all the grieving and fears from the breast cancer that this would be a breeze to get through. I am struggling so hard with this diagnosis. My lymph nodes were all negative thank God. There is no treatment for me now, they took the entire lobe. My oncologist says we will just have to be very aggressive with follow up scans since my body "likes to make cancer" That's really scarey. No chemo, no radiation, nothing??? I had surgery on Oct.19th, I am still not back to work yet. I continue with pain in the right upper chest with deep inspiration. I still get short of breath very easily. I am not taking narcotics anymore but I do take tramadol daily to just not feel like I am 90 years old. Everyone is telling me to stop being so hard on myself, but I feel like I should be much better by now. I know though that there is no way I could run up and down the halls of my ICU to care for others right now. I have not seen a pulmonologist yet, my surgeon didn't think it was necessary since I was so young and healthy. I have an appointment Monday with the pulmonologist because my primary highly suggested it. Maybe I can get some guidance here and from him too. Thanks for just listening and understanding where I am.