New plan for me, my dad and I planned for me and my family to go visit after his whole brain radiation this week. He's been putting off my visiting for a long time now. It's either that he doesn't want to plan too far ahead or he says his blood count is too low (he canceled twice before because of this). In my mind, he doesn't seem to want visitors. I think he doesn't want it to feel like people are saying goodbye (I may have said this before). Anyway, he just canceled again. Said his blood count is low, even though even he has said, in the past, when he gets a shot to help, he bounces back within a day or so, and we weren't going to be there until Saturday, we were going to stay at a hotel and would only stay an hour or whatever he could handle. We'd wear masks if he wanted as well.
But it is clear to me he isn't into having us. He said his radiation oncologist thinks he can blast his brain mets away for at least a year. He's getting his chemo for recurrent SCLC but "feels great." And his wife won't talk to me or let me know anything. I'm going to just leave it in his hands. I can't force or make him want to see me. Only the good Lord knows what he's thinking. I'm just glad I saw him when I did and that I made peace with our tumultuous relationship and forgave us both years ago.
Thanks to all of you for supporting me and being there for me to learn what I have. It meant the world to me. I certainly won't give up hope for my dad, I'm so glad for him that there are still options that I wouldn't have known about had I not come here. I'm sure I'll keep coming back to learn, and see if I could pass things on to him. You all deserve the very best care and health. <3