Beth, you are in my prayers. I log on everyday too, but many times don't have any input. Take one day at a time. Take care of yourself, and put that priority
first. Every day is a struggle, and takes enormous energy. I have no words to offer you except..one day at a time, nothing is ever the same again, treasure your memories..because in the end that's all we really have. I'm holding you close to my heart..I think I know your pain. You were a wonderful loving wife to your husband. Be thankful for those memories. God bless, write me anytime, Nancy