Thank you Bridget0 and LexieCat. I am getting increasingly depressed. I don't feel strong enough to weather the storm as it were. Maybe after I have the stent placed in my right coronary artery on Tuesday -- if I survive that -- I will feel better, but right now I am overwhelmed. I am very anxious about starting Tarceva and the prospect of becoming even more tired and nauseated. Also, I'm not sure if I can qualify for payment assistance from the drug manufacturer and I darned sure can't afford to pay a $4,000 monthly co-pay. I'm not the type for pity parties, believe me, but I'm about ready to throw in the towel. Should I try to enroll in a clinical trial, assuming there is one available nearby to where I live? I am currently running a small animal rescue organization by myself and I need to continue working at my paralegal job in order to afford my supplemental private insurance. Sigh.