I lost my husband of 38 years to Mesothelioma (asbestos cancer)on July 19, 2003. We live in a very small town in Oklahoma, where no one even knew what mesothelioma was. Therefor I couldnt find a suppot group anywhere around. Not any kind of cancer support at all. I'm at home now alone and after a year and a half, I have never found anybody just to talk to about any of this.
We knew something was wrong, because within a year he had lost around 70 pounds, I would find blood on his pillow in the morrings, he was having a hard time breathing, and his side hurt all the time. He went to the Doctors, but when they ask him if he smoked and he told them he did, that was far as they went. They told us he had COPD. They treated him for that and never ran test at all. That was in Jan. 2002, In April 2003 he got so sick they put him in the Hospital,they said he had Pneumonia. he was in there for two months while they treated him for pneumonia and he never got better. We had him moved to a Tulsa Hospital on the 3rd. of July, on the 14th. they tell me he has cancer and theres nothing they can do for him and I could take him home. I got him home Wed. the 16th. at 5:oclock P.M. and he died the 19th at 11:30p.m. I dont know why I'm writing this all down. I'm pretty sure you people have your own hands full. I guess I just need to find out if Theres something wrong with me or is this hurt I have inside something I just have to learn to live with. I have so much hate for his doctors, and I dont know what to do with it. I pray all the time to help me forgive them.
Lenda
