lords1protector

Whats shaking everyone how is everyone doing. I missed talking with you all for so long. There were plenty of days I wish I could have had my computer in the bed with me at the hospital when I first went in. Now I find myself wanting answer to problems that are going on in my life and house hold. If some of you have the time to talk and would like to chat sometime. Please send me a PM thanks guys and I look forward to writing and hearing from you all again soon. Take care Love Always Dartagnan

Hello Everyone Just wanted to see how you are all doing. Found cancer cells in my liver still doing test on it and such. But good news is I went out into the city this week had a blast got lost a few times while driving. Even had a beautiful women ask me for my phone number(yeah I still got it I guess) But had a .2cm shrinkage in my right lung yahoo something good finally happened. Chemo has me sick as a dog most days. But I am dealing with it to the best that I can. Drinking lots of Boost drinks. The strawberry one taste good with fresh strawberries and ice cream Its besides that I am doing well. Thinking of buying a cello next week and trying to learn how to play it. I have been playing Violin for almost 20years so I think I will drive the people next door crazy by learning to play something else. And it will sound so bad until I learn lol. They love hearing me play my violin but they will hate me playing the cello I am sure at the beginning. Anyways are any of you good people near Vermont. O and to missyk you have a beautiful smile. If I wasn't sick I would ask you out to dinner and a movie j/k Anyways I am glad you are all doing great. If anyone wants to be a voicepal lemme know could share our days and laugh at some of the retarded stuff we see. Like when I went for chemo one of the nurses breast most have poped out her bra because all of a sudden when she did a quick turn. One of her breast was kinda hanging way down(alot more below the one beside it) and she exited the room very fast and her face was as red as a cherry. I didn't think about it until later on but when I did boy did I laugh until it hurt. Anyways I will be online later on tonight send me a message if you bored thanks all

Boy was I sure Although I wish I had room to doubt it. I was stage III about a few weeks ago and now I am at Stage IV. Spread to my main Broncial Tube and my Liver. Just started my Chemo on Wed. and feeling sick as a dog atm. Doing Chemo/Taxol trying my best to keep my chin up. But I must admit its hard ,I am to the point now of wondering what is next. Terrible feeling knowing I was planning my big move to Rome in Dec. and some how this sneaked up behind me. I am glad to see so many cheerful replies. Lord knows I need them in these dark days I have ahead of me. My main thoughts are that I just had so many plans. So many things I wanted to do. Worked my life off to become a Neonatalogist(For those who don't know its a doctor that deals with premature babies). Was really looking forward to starting a family and having a photo album of my babies from work. Haven't been to work in a while now. Spending alot of time looking on the computer seeing what my options are. Checking into some ground breaking studies to see if they can offer me a chance to beat this. Just praying every night that I can make it through all of the hardships I know I have ahead. First treatment almost has me saying roll out the gravestone(just kidding ) But it is rough. I try to hide it from those around me so they don't worry anymore than they already are. But as the days go by the pain get worse and its harder for me not to show emotion from the pain and body aches and such. I just ask that you all keep me in my prayers. Its amazing how you go through you life being knocked down by friends growing up for not smoking,having sex,drinking and tried to keep my head above the waters. But this has seemed to pull me beneath it. Sorry for sounding so sad I am just still even now having a hard time accepting what has happened I find myself asking why me O Lord why me. But the answer never comes and I lower my head,sometimes with a tear rolling down my cheek and I try my best to find something to get my mind off it. So here I am the baby of you all(Counts how many old fart stickers he gonna have to send off) I am looking forward to building great friendships with you all. Hope you all are having Brownsugar Dreams right now Talk to you all soon Godbless and Au Revoir Yours Truly Dartagnan

My name is Dartagnan yeah I know its kinda long(father was from Rome and liked the French names alot) Nice to meet all of you. Kinda strange but reading some of your post put a nice smile on my face Almost for I am 27 years old

I have Stage 4 Lung Cancer. Just found out about 3 weeks ago. Never smoked never really did much of anything. At this point I am just looking to make friends going through the same thing to lean on and to laugh with. To cheer each other up when things seem down.