Lori,
From what I know about you, you're not a quitter by any stretch of the imagination.
I certainly can understand how you're feeling right now. And, that's ok, cause we have to let this stuff out sometimes. But, it's only a matter of time before you'll pull yourself together and reach deep down and do what needs to be done.
When I get down, which we all do, I always think that somewhere there is someone who has it worse than I do. I'd rather help that person than worry about myself. I guess that's my way of dealing.
I wish I could help in someway, but I have faith that you'll do it and wish you and your family the best.
Joan