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he was a true positive force here. I am so sorry for your loss.

coming back after some time away and the losses are, indeed, overwhelming. I can't express to you enough my condolences, or my admiration for your inner strength.

married, I am!! we did it this past Thursday, and spent the weekend with the Irish inlaws. whew. the whirlwind is done, we are so so happy, and the dust is starting to settle. the mother of bride looked gorgeous, and all the family who knew what she'd been through last year but haven't seen her were stunned at how healthy she is!! I can't believe I am about to do this, but this place is my family, so I will tell you...we found out 3 weeks before the wedding that there will be a baby bunny arriving in July! can you believe that!? we can't. I have been sick sick sick, but we're just thrilled. we told the parents this weekend, and are slowly leaking it to friends...well, this isn't slow, huh!? broadcasting it on the internet...needless to say, Suki is thrilled. so there's a heck of an update, huh? when I get these thank you notes done and we start looking for an apartment with room for a baby, all of my attention will be turned to our May 20, 2006 walk. we have a great committee forming, Joan, I get emails all the time. I'll probably need a cochair in light of these, er, developments, but everyone I've heard from sounds so committed, it's great! oh, and Pat, you're not getting my emails, girl. I have written you twice in the last month or so! I figured you were up to your eyeballs in fasteners... thanks for missing me. I think of and pray for you all every day, and will try and be around more now that wedding planning is done... xo amie

Congratulations! This is the report I came looking for. I can't wait to see the pictures and hear the final tally! Well done, Rich, and everyone else involved! Amie

Hi Beth. I just saw this, haven't been able to get over here for weeks. The walk is postponed to May 19 (I just actually posted it, before I noticed yours) due to my inexperience in planning, as well as some factors beyond my control. If you're looking for an LCSC get together while you're in town, I'd love to see you for dinner. We could even "go for a walk" if we wanted, in solidarity with the other walkers. I will be 2 weeks away from my wedding day, and will likely need a break! If not, next time you're in town, I hope. xo

I suspect your words are true, Lori, you will always miss her but please know that your example of a loving daughter caring for her mother under any and all circumstances changed my life, and my mothers'. I am so sorry for the pain you must be in, and so grateful for what you've shared with us. xoxo amie

This is a heartbreaker. He was a friend to me, in so many ways, and one of the first connections I made here. Grace under fire, in every way. so hard. xoxo

This is just devastating to learn. Lucie was a light for all of us, as are you, Don. Your impact on my life by your example can not be measured.

Praying here. My heart hurts to hear you this way. Love and healing to all of you. amie

Thanks Katie and Becky, and I am so sorry to anyone I've disappointed.

great news, Tracy.

CONGRATULATIONS CAROLYN!!!! love and admiration to all of you, amie

love to you and mom, Lori.

the face of the stranger who caught me, when my knees buckled as I watched the 2nd plane hit on a big screen in the middle of Times Square. and the smell.

prayers for CharlieD.

good idea, Dana! wish I'd though of that... beautiful touch.

This is great, Tina. perfect way to honor Charlie.

Well, the city officially lost not only the permit that was purportedly in the works, but our application as well. Joanie and I are both planning weddings ( ), my amazing team member Juanita Brown has been asked to do some other, incredible survivor work that she's going to be amazing at, and other team members had life catch up with them, as well. So, finding myself two months out with no permit and, therefore, no ability to 'go to press' with a date/time/location, we've agreed to postpone it. Katie B and Cate, from LUNGevity, were very supportive. Cate agreed that more time to plan and execute a springtime walk was more valuable than getting the NYC walk in during LC awareness month. We plan to do the walk in May, when the weather will be lovely (and it will still be within the same fiscal year for LUNGevity). So, sorry to have let some folks down but I am confident it has all worked out for the best. I love the idea of joining either the NJ (is that happening this year?) or Boston walks as a satellite walker. Thanks for nudging me Rich, I am embarassed to admit I thought I'd posted this a week ago, after I spoke with Cate. Call it bride brain, I am sorry to keep people hanging. xoxo amie

this place is just the most miraculous group of people I know. I am sorting out all the details, we have been planning all the details for months without a date. we conifirmed that the Ireland contingent could make it for November 30, 2006, which they can, so we're all systems go now. I know, it's soon - I am not p/g (yet), we're just tired of waiting. so November 30, 2006, we'll be getting married here http://www.thefoundry.info with me in this dress www.siriinc.com/bg-9590 only in a luscious satin and with some body in it, not like the model. it's a budget wedding, so I am looking forward to lots of "DIY" with family and friends, which I think is going to be a lot of fun. and although I told him I didn't need an engagement ring, David the Irish apparently has something up his sleeve...more will be revealed I guess. we're certainly backing into this - I got the dress on Fri., set the date on Sun., and will get the e-ring sometime before the wedding. I WILL keep you posted, and will also update the board soon on the status of the NYC walk. wedding aside, we've hit a few glitches. thanks again, love to you all. bunny

it's like I want to pretend that the LC never happened, even as I am so proud of Suki and what she lived through. I never come here any more, and this place and EVERYone here is ALWAYS on my mind. I am doing the advocacy work I wanted to, but it's almost like I wish the cancer could be out of sight, out of mind. which is baloney on so many levels: Suki is still on Tarceva, she's on a six month scan schedule and even though she's NED, it's never really gone, is it!? and I feel so selfish, because I feel strongly that I should be here for people who come in scared and confused as I was, but I get this weird sick feeling when I come back to the site. I lurk, but haven't been on here regularly since probably March or April. so now, in addition to everything else, I feel like an *ss because I feel like I've let you down, and all the people who've come on since I sort of disappeared. is this normal, or am I just selfish? I mean, there's plenty of other stuff happening: Dave's surgery went well but his recovery has been longer and slower than we thought it would be. I had my own medical adventures in June and July but am fine now. I do have one very amazing thing to tell you all, but, again, I feel a little embarassed, since I've been gone so long - Suki and I got to do one of the first things I was afriad we never would when she was diagnosed again last year: on Friday, we shopped for my wedding dress. no matter how flaky I get, you are always always always in my heart, LCSCers. Amie

I hate to read this Melinda. I fear I haven't been much of a friend to you here of late. I hope you know that you are never far from my thoughts, as a kindred soul just trying to care for her mom as best could - and you have! So well. Prayers and love, as always. Amie

this is great Joanie!

great news, Kelly! so good to hear.

no need to apologize, though I, for one, really appreciate the thoughtfulness of your post. I am not an atheist, but not not a Christian either (or a Jew, necessarily, or anything else with a 'name', for that matter) and sometimes wonder how I am perceived here. I believe in one, loving god that we all go to different places to find. that's what I hear in your post(s), and that's all I need to feel loved and cared for here. I believe all prayers help, since I believe they all end up in the same place. so thanks for being so loving and thinking of others the way you did. xoxo

this sounds so scary. keep us posted. I've nudged Suki into the habit of telling the onc EVERYthing, so I would have done the same thing you did. xoxo amie