Hey all.....new here Yesterday was year 7 of having my upper right lobe removed for a stage 1B. I understood I qualified as "B" because my tumor was .5 centimeter larger than 1A would dictate. But because it was only a 1/2 centimeter I chose not to have chemotherapy. Fingers crossed!
The reason I'm here is because I just had my follow-up scan and the way they did it this time caused me my little freak out now......in the last 3 or 4 CT scans it was in and out....the machine whirs up and I breath in, hold and breath out a couple times then I'm done.. This time they did the usual couple times and then a 3rd time they went incrementally moving a little bit each time and having me breath in and out each time. They've never done that before. It makes me fear the cancer has returned. I can only find solace in that if there IS cancer again it's caught early......but I can't shake my fear. I can't talk to anyone about it because everyone would jump in this worry bucket with me. I have to wait until I hear from my Oncologist because they found something or until my appointment with her on Oct. 1st to get the results......the old adage "no news is good news" works here for me.......sigh.....but I hate this. I hate the reminder, the fear and anxiety that goes with this. And just so you know: I smoked for 27 years.....I quit the day my Dad told me he had lung cancer and then he died 3 1/2 weeks later. I lost a first cousin when she was 48 to lung cancer and then my mother died from lung cancer so there's a history that makes my oncologist nervous to stop seeing me after the 5 year mark......so here I am having just past that 7th year.
I know there's really nothing I can do but this cancer monkey mind gets me every time I get this scan.
Thanks for letting me share........ ❤️
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