I know he is still getting injections, i believe its neuprogin, but will find out more when i see my boyfriend later today. His father has said from the start he was going to give it one good run and that was it, because he didn't want to go through all the pain, especially since it was only months with treatment they were giving him. I know out of everything, the WBC are the only count thats acceptable and thats because of the neuprogin he is getting. The RBCs and platelets are really low and i believe the platelet number is supposed to be around 100,000, it was 55,000, now its down to 17,000. We knew this was coming since the dx, but we were all holding on to some hope that the chemo and medication and transfusions would help, but its not. His dad hates hospitals and does not want to be there. His counts are too low so they haven't done a port, so he gets everything through IVs and is tired of the needle pricks and all that stuff. We all respect his wishes to be at home and do what he wants to do as far as the treatment. Its just really hard seeing someone who was so healthy and everything was fine 3 months ago to having 2 weeks. The doctor told my boyfriends family, if by some miracle she could get the counts up high enough to get chemo it would be 6 weeks, without 2. I think his dad would rather enjoy his last few weeks here with us, feeling relatively alright, instead of in pain or feeling like a burden, even though we have all told him he isn't. I was a psych major in college and i was able to tell from the beginning that he knew the extend even though they tried sheltering him from it. He has already started preparing for the inevitable and i think he feels he is ready, which is why he decided to stop the treatment. Everything is really confusing right now, because i am hearing second hand information from my boyfriend and obviously he is upset and its hard to talk about. He is not the most medically inclined person, and unfortunately, i have had experience in the LC world, due to losing my grandparents. I understand a little more and i am in the medical field. Its just hard sitting by and witnessing all of this and not knowing what to say. I am just trying to help them do what they need to do to have some sort of closure and acceptance of the circumstances. Thanks for your help and i really appriecate it. it means a lot to both me and my boyfriends family
Lauren
