it has been over two years since my father died. part of my connection to him is this board. i try to move on for him. i faithfully visit this board. sometimes, when i am busy, i don't forget, but i become overcome from business and put this life on hold. well not on hold, but visit less often. i haven't logged on in about two weeks. seeing that dave c is gone and that dean carl is having more challenges. it brings me back to that time. it is hard to visit this place again at that time. the heart ache, the tears, the relief. i love this dear family. it is so hard to go through the pain again. but i must, because otherwise i will forget and i don't want to. i want to remember, so that this cause stays dear to my heart. i am sorry to have been absent. my tears are flowing now for our dear angels who are some place better now. and to all those who continue this fight. when your heart breaks, it only leaves it bigger, for more love and of course, more heartache. to you all our fallen angels. your pain is over and we remember you always. mirrell