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  1. hello, my father had loculated pleural effusions. i did a search and this can be treated with serokinase(sp). it is highly successful treatment. they put this liquid into the lung lining and it breaks up the pockets of blood so it can be more easily drained. i don't have the links, as this was several years ago, but i will tell you, it worked for malignant pleural effusion witha hgh success rate. they got way more than 300cc. please do a search for serokinase and loculated pleural effusions on the web. there is another substance they can use as well. mirrell
  2. surround yourself with people you admire and who challenge you.
  3. when my dad was sick, i wrote a letter to my friend kennedy, it was pretty emotional. she promised then and there that she would be my support during my difficult time. when my dad's time came, i flew home from korea. i was with him his last night in the hospital. the next day, i told kennedy my dad had gone. she flew from whistler to calgary, talked me through my agony, drove my husband to the airport and just helped me through it. it was unexpected but i felt so much love and support from her. it made me feel less alone. i will always be eternelly grateful for that.
  4. my dog nicoya, my husband jerry, seeing an old student, dinner with coworkers and bosses, an email from my aunt, talk9ing tomy brother in law, a good run.
  5. good distractions: running, studying, work, my dog bad distractions: drinking, smoking,
  6. karen, i think that attitude is essential in fighting cancer. I am fighting with you and for your husband. take care of you. Mirrell
  7. I don't want to write about what happens when the end is near because I believe it really aint over til its over. It is important that the pain is kept under control. Thank goodness for that part of the medical world. When the end is near you will know it. Thinking of you and hoping for a lot of strength to come your way. Mirrell
  8. I don't really have much to add. Cheryl, I feel for you. I do hope you know that it is the medication and the situation. I can tell how much you love your husband and I need to tell you that he loves you too. Even if you can't always tell. You are doing an amazing job as his caregiver. Please take care of yourself. You are carrying your husband right now, and you will never regret that. Mirrell
  9. i didn't "feel" my dad around up until the last 6 months. it has been over 3 years for me now. at first, all i had were dreams about him being sick and tearful memories. in the last 6 months, i have had dreams where he is better, dreams that he is telling me something and some miscellaneous feelings, that even my husband has confirmed, that he is around. be patient. you too katie. i like to think that my mom is finally feeling a little better, and that now he has some extra time to take care of me. mirrell
  10. my dad was very handsome and a great dancer. he could also fix anything. i mean anything. he was generous and kind and very wise. he was also a worrier. one time when he was sick, i was sitting beside him, just keeping him company. he was in and out of consciousness and out of the blue he leaned over and tried to flick my nose. he awoke and thenlooked at me and said, "i was turning on a light." ha ha. i love him and miss him immensely. mirrell
  11. Karen, I am so thrilled to hear how well you are doing. Congratulations on the weight loss. I continue to think of you and Faith and hope this part of your journey continues to find you positive and surrounded by love. Mirrell
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    missing Mike

    There is no road map for grief. For each of us it is different. Unfortunately, there is no way to get through it easily. Forge ahead, embrace your emotions, and know that people are thinking of you and sending you love and strength during your next stage of this cancer journey. Mirrell
  13. Hello Xena, remembering the pain and awful effects of cancer is so difficult. I still remember my dad in pain and suffering. It is then I cry the most. Iwould have done anything to take away my dad's pain. Now, two and a half years later, I am starting to remember other things. The memories are bittersweet. I am thankful to have other memories besides him in the hospital bed, etc. However, I long for the good memories not to have faded. Recently, I have a recurring dream that I can't remember if my father is dead or not. That is, in my dream he is still sick but regaining strength and I wake up confused. There is no way through this time except to go straight through it. Time may not necessarily heal all wounds, but it does become easier. I wish you strength and love in your path forward. Mirrell
  14. it has been over two years since my father died. part of my connection to him is this board. i try to move on for him. i faithfully visit this board. sometimes, when i am busy, i don't forget, but i become overcome from business and put this life on hold. well not on hold, but visit less often. i haven't logged on in about two weeks. seeing that dave c is gone and that dean carl is having more challenges. it brings me back to that time. it is hard to visit this place again at that time. the heart ache, the tears, the relief. i love this dear family. it is so hard to go through the pain again. but i must, because otherwise i will forget and i don't want to. i want to remember, so that this cause stays dear to my heart. i am sorry to have been absent. my tears are flowing now for our dear angels who are some place better now. and to all those who continue this fight. when your heart breaks, it only leaves it bigger, for more love and of course, more heartache. to you all our fallen angels. your pain is over and we remember you always. mirrell
  15. Shellie, I know you. I know you from a long time back. I remember, I remember. Wow. Time does fly. But time doesn't let you forget. Time lets you heal, but not forget. Here is to not forgetting. If you forget, a life is wasted. IT is through memory that life remains forever. Here is to the people, family, that you have lost. And here is to remembering every last detail, and relishing in it. Mirrell
  16. Karen, how hard this must be for you. I don't really know what to say. I have been following you and Dave for quite awhile. What I really want to say is " Never give up hope" and " no matter what, you are going to be ok". Thinking about you and your family and sending my prayers. Mirrell
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    update on Mike

    Nancy, I am so feeling for you in your time of distress. What can I say. Praying for the beeest for the both of you. Mirrell
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    He's gone...

    I am so sorry. Mirrell
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    5 for 3/31

    1.sangjun 2.two legs to run with 3.nicoya 4.jerry 5.middle school job starts again soon
  20. mirrell

    5 for 3/27/05

    1.excellent 52 minute run by the river 2.sushi 3.c.s.i. is on tonight 4.brian 5.my husband
  21. mirrell

    5 for 3/25

    1.aspirin 2.talked to my mom last night 3.friends 4.a good job 5.food
  22. 1.it is friday here in seoul, south korea 2.my friend sangjun 3.ativan 4.c.s.i. 5.nicoya
  23. Hi Karma, good to hear from you. Mirrell
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