Diagnosed with NSCLC in march of this year. 4 months after caring for my precious mother who was diagnosed with the same and passed away 9 months after diagnosis. I had surgery and am living with less half a lung. I am terrified even though my 6 morning scan was clear. I cry EVERYDAY from grief and fear. My family has pushed me away telling me to go a support group when I clearly stated my need of their love and support so here I am. I have no birth family for the holidays, not even invited.😭 I can't wrap my head around all this, it's heartbreaking. I feel so uncared about. Being the caretaker of this family, I need them now only for love, hugs and a ear/shoulder. I miss my mom although I am glad she doesn't have to see what I am going through. They call me a survivor but I need help living in that space rather than terror EVERYDAY. Ty for listening if anyone is.
