goldy31

it's been awhile since I have been to this site. It's hard to come here and read the stories of so many people struggling with this awful disease. It's been almost three years since I lost my husband. he was 39 when he passed. He was a healthy, robust, athletic fire fighter when he was diagnoised. How and why do these things happen? I ask myself this question everyday. How do we carry on? he left behind a 5 year old (now 8 and struggling to remember Daddy) and a 13 year old (right at the time she needs Daddy the most). I am so lost and so angry, and I question the God that I always believed would comfort and protect me. Some days it is just too much to bear, too much to carry on my shoulders. I am so tired, and I miss my Christopher so very very much. Thanks for letting me vent, I'm so sorry for us all.

it's been 4 months since my husband Chris past away at the age of 39 leaving behind 2 girls, 13 and 6. I keep waiting for it all to get better...even just a little bit better~ time is not my friend, as it goes by the loss of him gets a little bit worse, more staggering. I'm trying not to be angry at God for putting us through this~trying not to be angry when I read of people's victory against this disease...why not Chris?? Why wasn't he one of the lucky ones? Why at 39 did God see it fit to take him from me? We did all the "right" things...nutrition, prayer, supplements, on and on and on...yet here I sit after 17months of trying to keep him alive I find myself widowed, alone, really angry, and desperately sad. Thanks for letting me vent... I just miss him so very much. Laurey

Hello to all again, I am so very touched by all of the gracious,heartfelt sympathies that you all offered to me regarding my husband Chris' passing. I am especially humbled that many of you, still in your own raw grief of a recent loss,or in the middle of your own crisis,came forward with such strong words of encouragement and sympathy. It's hard to believe that it will soon be a month since I lost Chris...he is everywhere,and yet so heartbreakingly gone...in the Christmas lites that I had to put up using his instructions,in the Christmas tree that I had to lug out of his truck, in the walk that I shoveled, and on and on and on. Anyway, that is not why I posted, I really wanted to extend my thanks to all of you for your kind words. May you all find peace and healing, Laurey Husband Chris diagnosed 6/05 w/adeno/BAC stageIIIb lower& mid rt lung removed 8/15/05 chemo until 6/06 left lung collapse 7/06 Surgery to permanently attach lung to chest wall left him in a weakened state until his death November 10, 2006. Chris was 39.

Thank you all for your kind words...as I reread my post I realized that I mistakenly wrote October 10th as Chris' passing...it was in fact November 10, 2006. Thank you again for your support. Laurey

I first posted at this site on Oct.12,2005. My husband Chris was diagnosed in June, 2005. I have come to this site many times in the past year, but never did post again...it's been all too overwhelming, I never knew what to say...so I quietly offered my support by reading your stories, sharing in your joys and sorrows. Unbelievably I find myself posting the news that Chris lost his battle with this (expletive) disease on November 10,2006. He was a 39 year old firefighter,a never smoker, leaving behind two daughters ages 13 and 5. It all feels so surreal. As so many of you know, things like this aren't suppose to happen. I always thought that he would be one of the few lucky ones who beat this...how could he not? Any other outcome was inconceivable~yet here I find myself, a widow with two young kids. How am I suppose to carry on? My girls look to me for comfort and I have none to offer. So I comfort them with false words of "it will be ok, everything will be fine". Really? How? I shake my fists at God...this is a merciful God? No. Chris was the light and love of my life. He was my very best friend, my confidant, my soul. The pain of losing him is so beyond describing...it's crushing me,suffocating me... I can't find the words, there are none. Thank you for this site...it gave me knowledge and comfort. To anyone reading this, may you or your loved one be one of the lucky ones who beats this unbearably cruel disease. Peace to us all, Laurey Husband Chris diagnosed 6/05 adeno/bac stageIIIb lower/mid rt lung removed 8/15/05. Chemo until June 06 Left lung collapse in July 06 Surgery to perm.attach lung to chest wall left him in a weakened state until death Nov.10, 2006

Hi to all, my husband was diagnosed with lung cancer in June of 05. Middle & lower right lobectomy done in Aug. Ended up having 3 thorocotemies due to complications. Survived an initial code blue but is now doing fabulously, (golfing, tennis,sooo unbelievable!!). Vague finding on left lobe...hoping it's "nothing". He started tarceva 3 weeks ago...is tolerating it well. We have been following Patrick Quillan's book, and he has been taking the supplements up until starting the tarceva. I can't find any information on tarceva and high dose supplements...has anyone combined tarceva with high dose supplements, or know of any studies regarding this? Any ifno would be so appreciated! My thoughts are with everyone who is touched by this frightening disease~may we all have peace. Goldy31 My husband is a 37 year old nonsmoker