Welcome Rose,
There are many of us here that feel exactly or very close to what you are feeling. I, too, started getting more anxious after my surgery & chemo, around the one year mark and before every check-up. That is about when I joined here and everyone has helped me immensely. No one seems to really understand as well as those that "walk" there too. Your feelings and fears are validated here. Yes, every ache & pain makes us worry and some of us can just "feel" the cancer actually spreading inside ourselves. I know that I felt better knowing that I wasn't just feeling sorry for myself or crazy when everyone told me how they felt also. Some people put into actual words, what you are feeling and that helps too. I am also on 2 anti-depressants and Xanax, and those help too. Stick with us, you'll be glad you did. Patty