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I wasn't 'home in one day'. I had surgery on Tuesday and was released on Thursday. One nurse did tell me that I probably had the fastest recovery that she had ever seen. The pain is getting much more manageable. I'm not taking the pill every two to four hours anymore. Yesterday I think I only took four of them out of a possible 8-10 that I could have taken. I've got my mind over the dull level 3 constant ache that I'm living with and therefore dont need meds to deal with that pain anymore. I'm certainly hoping the final pathology comes in negative - I actually hadn't even given any thought to the possiblilty that it could be positive at all. Today I plan on taking my first short walk outside the house. Hopefully I can do 1/4 mile for starters. I'm sure I'll sleep afterwards as I'm usually exausted after just a shower.

I'm home. Initial biopsy shows no malignancy. Will knows for sure with final pathology report in a few weeks. LOTS of pain tho. I couldnt believe it when the precription was for 95 percoset. Now, I do. After one night I think I'm going to ask for something stronger.

Last post here unti lI come out from under the ether - then I hope to post from the hospital. carsalesguy.blogspot.com there will be on post on my blog concerning my post surgical condition.

Thanks again for all the support. I've been busy the last two days trying to get everything in order in preparation for the hospital.

lol, I got some anti anxiety meds today. I wrote that on the day I found our about this. It just still seems relevent and I think I was posting it here to try to remind myself how I've got to fight and not lie down. Sorry if I offended anyone.

I've lived life to the fullest. I've lived, loved, travelled, explored, pushed my physical limits, partied like it was 1999, fallen on my knees in supplication, laughed at the gods, cried for humanity, gotten high with kings, fed the poor, and found my wings. Still, there must be more.... I've come so far and can't quit now. Looks like I'm in for the fight of my life without adequate training - gotta fix that - must become lean and mean. Nothing else will save me now. I knew I'd die young, but now is not the time. I'm just starting to find out what is important and damn it - I'm not ready- it's not right- it's not the time - it's not going to happen. Rage - Rage and anger is what I'm feeling. Must get my mind around that, harness it, spend it, revel in it. Falling from the top it's a long way down. Dont want to finish it like this. The writer hasn't finished the script yet. One year, Five years, fu__ that - it's not enough! I need more, I want more, I deserve more. Must have more - happiness dangling in front of my face and being jerked away from me - not gonna happen! Sometimes I just wanna scream...

Lets face it - 97% of recliners are tacky.

no, it's really hard to find a nice recilner for a 6'5 man that doesn't look like something from bubba's basement. So I dont own a recliner at all. Maybe go spend the first week at a friends house would be a good idea.

any input on me being to climb 12 stairs to get up to my bedroom?

My Mother Maliciously Made Maddy Matriculate More Masculine Moribund Minorities. Next letter 'p'

1. Fruits 2. Article of clothing 3. School supplies 4. Flowers 5. Things at the Beach the letter 'm' 1. Mango 2. Manolo's (that counts doesn't it) - i knew a gal that said they were essential 3. Markers 4. Magnolia 5. Man-o-war next letter 'g'

I've elected to have the surgery here in Chattanooga at Memorial Hospital. I think I've found a very good team of doctors, two of them even happen to be clients of mine. I have a lot of faith in both of them. My surgeon today told me that he will try to perform a Thorascopy but due to the location of my little black buddy (deep in the lung) combined with the fact that I'm very broad shouldered and barrell chested, he tells me that in his experience a Thoracotomy will probably be necessary. Hospital time could be as much as 10 days and total recovery in 6-8 weeks is what he is telling me now. Anyone have any experience with hiring a home nurse or anything like that? He was a bit concerned that I live alone. And BTW - the hospital has wifi

Surgery scheduled for Thusday. I'll be checking in to the hospital on Monday. I'll post more later. I'm wrapping up everything here in the office before I go on leave this afternoon

3.5 hours until surgeon visit. I'll be asking for some anti anxiety meds today! I'll let everyone know how it goes. Rob

The waiting is the hardest part right now it seems. I found out about this on Feb 2 and it's been 21 days since then. I'm about to come unglued. I've never wanted to be in the hospital so badly in my life. Just a place when I can START to get better and turn my mind off for a few days hopefully. I'm finding that this occupies my mind every waking hour. I just know I'll not have a day or nights peace until I'm sedated in the hospital. I originally thought about going to have all my surgery done at Vanderbuilt University here in Tennessee however it's about 2 hours from my home and I didn't want to be away from my small support group for that long. Now I guess it's a moot point as one of the most perfect women I've ever met walked out of my life yesterday. Oh well, her loss (gotta keep that in my head). Parents are dead so I'm sorta flying solo thru this now. Dont get me wrong, I'm not gonna be alone thru this as I'm a very social person. Just harder w/o anyone whom you are 'close to' Thanks for letting me vent..