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    Pink Football

    Patti, That is all I could think about while watching the Giants game today......I think a letter is a good start. I may have to find some time to do the same thing!
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    Sandra

    So sad to hear this....my thoughts and prayers go out to her family and friends.
  3. Some of you who have been around awhile know that my dad and the Giants went together like peanut butter and jelly. Last year after he died I had such a hard time getting into the football season. I love it like he did and that was our "thing". This year it has been easier to enjoy it but I still feel such a huge void. It will never be the same again. I try to make new memories with my kids like he did for me but that is hard too... Its finally cold enough to wear his Giant jacket in the mornings and I know he is around. I I sit and watch Connor playing flag football and half the time all I can think is....Dad would love this..... My husband's car engine blew yesterday. It was the car we bought from my dad. I know somewhere he was laughing while my husband was standing on the side of Interstate 95 because my husband is not good with taking care of cars and it drove my dad nuts! Of course, now he is stranded on a golf trip in Myrtle Beach and I'm running around looking for another used car to buy which sucks because in the past my dad would be the one helping me. He helped me buy my current car and took the test drive, etc.... So, on a wing and a prayer I am trying to think of what he would advise me to do and then just close my eyes and make the best decision possible.... It just hurts sometimes and I think the more time that goes by the more I realize he is really gone and the more I miss him Of course, losing an ovary a couple of months ago might not be helping Stupid Hormones...... Thanks for Listening! Tammy
  4. So happy to hear such great news!!
  5. I agree with feeling guilty about taking the money. I am hoping that the bulk of it gets donated to lung cancer research or the research of addiction. There was a chance that my dad's original laryngeal cancer and subsequent lung cancer was caused by Agent Orange while he was in Vietnam. He filed and was initially denied until I did some research and after re-submission he was approved and did get money every month until he died. That money helped him go to Hopkins and get the specific treatments he wanted by the doctors he wanted without having to worry so much about insurance. My mom now gets a portion of that money each month.
  6. Check out the link for this article: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32545327/ns ... _business/
  7. I am so sorry for your loss and I am so sorry for all of the pain you are going through. Please know that you are not alone. My doctor prescribed sleeping pills when my dad passed away so the anxiety wouldn't keep me up each night. I was still able to grieve but when you have children you also need to be able to function. Be gentle with yourself. Each person handles grief differently. If you're not ready to cry, don't cry now, the tears will come in time... Thoughts, prayers and hugs, Tammy
  8. So sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.
  9. This one freaked me out too....I'm glad I made the choice to go with the surgeon who removed my cyst and was more conservative rather than the original doctor that wanted to take everything......
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    Holy Cow!

    Fantastic news
  11. How gorgeous are those girls???? Congratulations!!!
  12. Nick, That is so beautiful! What a gift!
  13. Hi Everyone, Thanks so much for all of your thoughts and prayers. The official pathology report came back yesterday before I left the hospital....it is BENIGN! I didn't realize how scared I was until I heard the report. When they took the cyst out they were concerned because they said it was the wierdest, largest and ugliest thing they had ever seen (glad it wasn't a baby Anyway, the pathologist didn't see anything concerning in it initally but sent it off to make sure and all is well. Kudos to all of you who have gone through surgeries out there....its not for wussies! Trying to wean myself off the nasty pain meds because they make me feel worse. Will post more and try to keep up with everyone when I'm feeling better! Take Care, Tammy
  14. Just a small update. I will be having my gigantic cyst removed tomorrow. Today would've been dad's birthday and tomorrow will be the anniversary of his very first cancer diagnosis....I am hoping and praying that this thing is benign and this will break the cycle...I will be in the hospital for a couple of days maybe more depending on what they have to do once they get in there. I will update you all when I am back from what I hope is a good pain med vacation! Being the control freak that I am, I have put matching outfits together for the kids so that they don't look like orphans while I am away Tammy
  15. Kasey, I am so sorry for all of the hurt that you and everyone else goes through because of this disease..........please know that you are not alone. Hugs, Tammy
  16. Kasey and Fred, So, so, sorry. My heart hurts. She truly was a hero. Her time spent in clinical trials will be part of her legacy to her children so that hopefully others may not suffer from this horrible, unfair disease. She fought so hard. My heart is breaking for you, Fred, her beautiful children and the rest of your family. Please know that you will be in our thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Tammy
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    My hard day today

    Sorry you had such a tough day Randy. Thinking of you.
  18. Oh Kasey, I pray for everyone on this board but I always say a special prayer for you and Tracy. I have messaged back and forth with Tracy in the past regarding clinical trials. I will be thinking of all of you. Tammy
  19. Sending prayers your way.
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    Another June 17

    Pat, Thinking of you and keeping you close in my prayers!
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    My 6/12 CT results

    So glad to hear the good news!
  22. Hi Everyone! Thanks for the well wishes. Met with the gyn on Monday and he said my counts were 294 and they like to see under 20 Needless to say I almost fainted. He did say that the test is unreliable in premenopausal woment but he said that he wanted to refer me to an oncologist. My mom called my dad's old oncology nurse and she recommended one out of that office and was able to get me an appointment a week earlier which was great. (Sue, she is in the Virginia Oncology group) Had a CAT scan yesterday. My hats go off to all of you who drink that barium everytime. That stuff is horrible! I don't know how my dad did it all of the time. Anyway, even the technician commented on how "huge" my cyst was( I didn't think they were supposed to say anything)..... Met with the Oncologist today and she truly feels that it is benign but said there still is a chance it could be cancerous and they won't know until they remove it. It is much bigger than originally thought. It is 18cmx18cmx15cm. Apparently the size of a 6 month pregnancy! She feels the solid piece could very well be my ovary. The only way to test it is to take it out so I will be getting a call tomorrow to schedule surgery. It will be a full laparotomy and I will be on my butt for at least 2 weeks. I keep trying to think of it as a mini vacation. They are hoping to only take the cyst and whatever ovary is attached to it, test it and if no sign of cancer, finish up. They will test it while I'm under and if it is malignant I will have a full hysterectomy. I am feeling much better about it today because the doctor was so calm and matter of fact. I think I am in good hands. Thank you so much for all of your thoughts and prayers. It truly means so much! I was convinced the fly that wouldn't get out of my car the other day was my dad and had a long talk with him (Hope no one was looking at the crazy later talking to the fly in her car) By the way, mom and I got the local ice hockey farm team down here (Norfolk Admirals) to tentatively agree to a "lung cancer awareness night in November" still working out the specifics and hoping that Lungevity will be the benficiary of whatever is decided!
  23. Wow Jamie!! Some Whoop Whoop from NC!
  24. Hi Guys, Well the 11th was a year for dad. As I am sure others understand, I can't believe it has been that long and in other ways it feel like an eternity....My mom, myself and the kids trekked up to NY to the cemetery and a mass in my dad's name. It was nice, most of his family was able to be there. I was finally able to have some alone time at the cemetery which was hard but I was able to grieve without my kids watching me and that was cathartic. Right before I left, I went in for a routine gyn exam and they thought my uterus was enlarged and had me come back for an ultrasound. The tech wasn't looking more than a minute when she left and got the nurse practicioner who then left and got the doctor.....I knew from experience that it wasn't a good thing They found a very large cyst (12 cm x 12 cm) that was obstructing their view of my ovaries and is apparently pushing up my uterus. They did say it is mainly fluid filled from what they can see (maybe a small solid piece of about 3 cm) and that it is smooth which is supposedly a good thing. They ran a CA-125 to check cancer counts and called while I was in NY to say it was elevated.....so, now they want a CAT scan this week. I have an appointment with my gyn office this afternoon for a surgery consult and an appointment for a second opinion on Weds. As of right now, not sure when the scan will be. Apparently the CA-125 is not a reliable indicator so I am hanging on to that hope but know not to get too excited until I have more info.... if there is any hint that this is cancer I am going to consult a gyn/onc...... Sorry this was so long but needed a place to get this off my chest without making my mom too crazy....and I thought those "scanxiety" days were behind me
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