Help.... I am not sure where to turn and after reading through some of the posting I realized this might be the place. My 53 year old mother was dx about a month ago with Stage 4 small cell cancer, pretty much everywhere. Lung, liver, kidney, spine, adrenal glands, bone.... She was a huge 4 pack a day smoker up until about 5 years ago. My husband said we always knew this would happen, we just didn't know when.... He's right but honestly... I am a mess. One minute I feel like this can't be happening and she is fine and the next I am crying over EVERYTHING! She is not undergoing any types of treatment other than pain management. The doctors really haven't said a whole lot and she seems to be hanging in there... I wonder about how fast this will go and I pray that she is just comfortable. We haven't been very close and prior to rcving the phone call 4 weeks ago that she was in the hospital...she was in so much pain... well, we hadn't talked for a year and a half. She has always been so busy being mad at me for everything. But, now that I went home right away and have been making weekly trips to see her and help out she seems to have mellowed. There is so much I want to say but I don't know how.... Cancer... I don't see it when I look at her and I don't feel it when I hug her and sometimes I just think this is unreal... Stage 4 they all seem to say this is really bad... And yet with the meds she seems kinda ok... I am so confused and luckily I don't know a soul who has been through this..... I have been trying to read about it but I don't seem to be getting far and with a 3 year old and a 6 year old at home... well, I don't even know if I am prossessing all of this yet... Does anyone have any advice for me or information if this is really that bad??? I am lost... Help.... I wouldn't wish this on the devil.