Hi everyone i hope no one cares if i vent. My mom has nsclc we found out on memorial day. My life has been on a rollercoaster ever since. I still live at home with my mom, dad and sister iam 32 years old, I know i am a loser. I try to help with mom as much as possible and fix her meals. Mom has had problems ever since the diagnosis first she coulndt keep anything down they fixed that then she became constipated then they fixed that her legs were swelled they are trying to fix that but i dont understand why she cant walk since her legs have gone down. Is this normal? now she cant eat because it burns her throat because she hase some kind of rash. It hurts me to see her suffer. This morning we took her to the hospital. I was hurt and went outside to cry my father come outside and broke down and said he coundnt do this all by himself. I was hurt that he was hurt but it also made me feel like i hadnt helped any, is it selfish of me to want to get hospice to help I cant lift her to change her depends and i mentioned to my father and he said it was a good idea. I feel week and inadequate as a daughter. I had talked about getting myself an apartment and i think this hurt my father thinking i was going to leave. But i wasnt trying to run away from moms situation. Can someone please give me some advice?