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I know how you feel. I went to where John got treaments. I had an orement for all cancers and was to take it when we went for treaments but, John could not get back. I tried to go and thank the staff but all I could see was John walking down the hall so tall and alive! Well I went last (6/22/07) on the 5th mouth of his passing and didn't know this till next day. Well I did cry couldn't even say about the Hope orement for tree and the cupcakes I made for all of them. I know John would have wanted me to do this. IT DID help alittle.

So sorry for your loss. Take each day at a time.Sending you prays. I know it is very hard. God Bless your family. carol

I have the same feeling as you. I, sometimes feel like I died that day too . I try to move on, I have dreamed about John but he doesn't talk. May seen dumb, but his dog is missing, John. She is jumping on the other dogs and fighting with them. The Vet said there world is turned upside down and it may take mounths. She always went on the truck with him and really loved John. Dogs do sence things. I think the dogs help me sometimes. I keep telling my self someday it will be better. But some days it hits so many times!

My sympathies to you and your family.

So sorry . My sympathies to you and your family.

So sorry for your terrble lost,such a very hard time for you and your family. Your my space is very beauful.

I'll be praying for you. I know it is hard.Glad you got pain meds. John had an inhailer and also the machine that I put meds in and he could breath alittle better. This helped, cause the DR wouldn't give John any more Chemo, he was too weak. Praying for your family.

What a beautful baby! So good to hear great news! Congratulations and best of luck!

So sorry for all the pain. You should call Hospice. It was very hard for me to call them at first. I cryied for 2 days before I did. The nurse at the cancer center helped me decide. I couldn't get John to walk he was 265 6'4" and i am 97 and 5' 2". No one to help me move John. He couldn't even crawl. But than Hospice came in and walked me threw every thing. I've called them even at 3 in the morning. God bless you's and help you's in your need. I'll pray for you's

So sorry for you and your family. Bless you's and my God wrap his arms around you's in your sorrow.

I know your hurt Loretta. I yell in my mind I want my husband back! (((())))

At 1st I wondered, than It was what they have choesen to do is serve the people. So they want to keep at it. When John 1st found out he wanted to go here and there and we couldn't really and I felt like I couldn't enjoy my self knowing WHY WE WERE GOING and I told him so. He did understand. But he wanted to go back on the truck. He did made 2 rounds again. He said when he was off the truck he just got sick. He felt better working. Some days I still can't beleive he is gone. Spring is here and John is gone. But God hepl her and I pray for her and family.

OH Myagle My heart go's out to you. I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless

That was so nice. I'm sure she was with all of you's.

Glad to hear everything is well. I did cry with with, it is one rocky road. We learn every day.

I feel your pain and hurt. My DB did some pretty weird things. He wouldn't talk to me for 2 weeks. Said I was selfish and told me to leave. Their was just the 2 of us. I just let this pass. I know in the beinging The OC nurse told me not to feel gulity about the cancer and to yell at him if need be. John did sell our big truck (18 wheeler) and than took it back, than sold the trailer and turned around and bought anouther one! I'm trying to deal with running the truck and pay bills. No life insurance cause OOIDA sold him accident insurance and we never reaaly looked at it, beusy ruuning truck. I'll pray for both of you's. As they say put on your big girl panties. I know it's hard, this cancer is just the worse.

((((( Nick ))))) I know how you feel. I'ed give anythig to see him walk in that door or hear the big truck pull in the yard! It will be starting Spring and he will not be here. I pray for all of us.

Oh KatieB I'm so sorry to hear your Mom passed the same day. I'll say some prayers for you. I know how you feel. God Bless

Thank you for shareing. This is so true and beautful.

It is one month today that John passed. It seems like a year. My daughter's came for weekend and that helped. I hated to see them go. Some days are hollow. Some days don't feel like talking to anyone. some days I'll talk about John to other people and now I don't start to cry. I know about takeing steps. I try to move forward,I think keeping the truck going helps.Everything is going wrong. So if it go's south just not supprised. I do find myself saying if something happens to tell John or wish he was here to tell him. He did tell me after the brain suryger that he would see me again.

So sorry for your lost. praying for comfort for you and girls

Prayering and thinking of you's. I know the fog you walk in, I think our minds do this so we can get pass these most terrble times My God help you,give peice to your DB and girls

prayering for you's

That is raelly neat! Thanks for shareing. I have also sent it to some friends.

I have just read he has lung cancer. He represents eastern Ga. He is a major author fot legislation on patients righs and health care benefits for veterans. I will pray for him and his family. So sorry to read this.