Hi there, again
I'm very glad to see that you're there and even though you've not known me, you 've wanted to be with us...I hope that you'd known how it's amazing to me to feel that i was not alone....
My sister and my mother... My mother she's through the stroke, and disabled... It's been 6+ years now.
My sister went along the way with my mother and she was caring her, and it was ironic that she had to be diagnosed with SCLC...
I'm the youngest one of six siblings.. I had no choice than to persevere and keep my patience and good intentions for anyone of us...
Now i'm faced with the decision to make if I'm more concerned with my mother's care or my sister's care...
I refuse to make a choise like that... Because I believe that such a decision is not my burden, I hope the God will lead me to the path with the help of yours.. I believe in that; i have to keep my faith and my good intentons along the way... I believe that, that's all I can do, and God will show us the path...
I've read a lot of posts... Particularly of a woman who said that she wished to had lc instead of her mother... I've read that she wasn't very wellcome...
Let me express myself, when I heard the diagnosis of my sister's, I wished the same thing. I thought that, she has children and a family life which I couldn't experienced, and I thought that it should be me to have diagnosed with SCLC than her, because I'm living such an existentialist way of life, though I can't keep my self to wish anyone to be happy more than me...
I thought that she would do more of this life than me, and sure enough to know that she deserved to live more than me... If it was me to pursue to living more, than that would be waste of a lifetime.
I have to admit and thank that, from the beginning of early diagnosis to that far, God has helped us... Pathologist, chest surgeon etc.. they've all helped us to find our path to heme...
My sister's radiation onchologist was once in Pitsburgh, he was there, and he is very helpful to us... So I want to thank you that your people, US citizens helped us, though indirectly...
I don't know the future, I can't figure it out if it will be bright or dark. Whatever the God's will, I'll have to keep it with my good intentions along the way...
I'm still trying, and will try to keep it going..
I hope that my mother with a stroke related disabling, and my sister with a SCLC diagnosis and easyly can be full of fear, and me, trying to keep of all of my good intentions in my heart,
we will try, we will try to cope the evil, even the evil comes from the very near of our own genes, like siblings or family relatives...
This is the second time that I've shared my life experiences, and the next time I hope that I can share my scientific references like; when it's come to be faith healing, or should we be safe to keep away when our treatments going along with Saint John's Wort etc..
Now I'm listening this :
Coldplay, Fix You;
When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And i…
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And i…
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
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I'm very inspired with the lyrics:
"Lights will guide you home"
I hope, we all find our paths to our home...
I'm with you...