trish33

Is this a dream? I feel like I'm in a nightmare that I can't wake up from. I had to go through his cell phone and make calls to his friends, and one girl flat passed out! Luckily her mom was there and was able to be there till she came around. My mom's doc perscribed us some anxiety meds. (thank God) I have to start going through his personal papers tomarrow after the funeral. I don't even know if he had any life insurance. I think he owned his house though and the proceeds from the sale can help pay the medical bills as he didn't have medical insurance. I hope he wasn't buying the house on contract. I'm sorry guys, I'm rambling....Thanks you all for lettimg me ramble though. I've always been such a private person and don't have alot of freinds so this site is turning out to be such a great release and such a great source of support. You all have no idea. Thank you, thank you everyone. Trish

I'm new here myself, but my prayers are with her and your whole family. I think there are ALOT of supportive people here. I wish you all the best!

I'm not sure of the type other than the non-small cell. It hit him hard and fast. He had 2 rounds of chemo. And they were going to put him on Tarceva I think is the name. but he had no health ins. so it was slow going. He was 6 foot 2 and weighed only 123lbs. He was put in the hospital on Wednesday morning about 4am for sob and was there diagnosed with pneumonia. I got the call from the hospital at 4am this Friday that he had passed. Like I had said, he was telling everyone that the docs had gotten almost all the cancer. When I talked to the attending doc., she said he knew how bad it was. I can only speculate that he was trying to spare us. I, being a nurse, should have known how bad it was because he was going through 4mg Dilaudid 60count every 10 days. But I'm not an oncology nurse and, well, I was just wanting to beleive that he was getting better!!

Well, my name is trish. My brothers name was brian. brian had non-small cell lung cancer. He passed away Dec. 29. He'd just been diagnosed about 6 months ago. His passing came as quite a shock since he never told anyone how bad his condition really was. is that normal for people with serious illnesses to do? I mean he told everyone they almost had it beat, and he was talking about the future and everything. I just don't understand. He was only 50 years old. I'm just in shock right now. I'm a nurse and I'm goging to throw myself into work i guess. I'm going in tonight. Well, thanks for letting me vent a little bit. I sure I'll probably be back!!