jasmine1963

It's 2:30 again!!! I have to work another double shift tomorrow and I know it'll be a long one!!! I wait until I can no longr keep my eyes open to actually lay down, it doesn't matter... There are times I feel stretched so thin I think I'm begining to lose part of myself!

I think we are so afraid we may not hear them if they need us, my uncle came to visit my Dad today and I was so glad. Dad wears himself out though, I tried to explain to him everyone understands and it is not rude for him to rest when he needs to. This was the first visit by anyone other than us kids so now I know what to give everyone a heads up on and they will make sure he rests when they visit.

I have two dogs I have had for 14 years and they were inside.. they are now in a kennel outside... although they are very important to me, they are still just dogs, my Dad is my Dad..

I am so thankful my Dad is with me, we are different in a lot of ways, I have made his room very comfortable for him He has his own phone line and easy chair, t.v. that kind of thing. His room is also in the quietest area of the house. My Dad really likes my home and is happy being here. That single thing gets me through the day. Being able to assist him in feeling safe and secure during this stage of his life is thr greatest gift I have ever received!

Well I must say I'm relieved to know it is not just me! It seems like I'm sleeping less and less.. but the scary thing is the time I actually feel I could go into a deep comfortable sleep is when I'm driving, and I have a 45 min comute one way to work, through the mountains and curves!There have been so many times I'm so thankful to pull in the parking lot of the restaurant, I know I'll start to function again. I went and bought some books on tape and that has helped but there are times its scary!

I am with you in thought through this "part" of the cancer.. it is a part of the whole.. My family has expressed concern for me later on. My dad is my focus and complete responsibility, he's stage four non operable non small cell lung cancer, it's moved into his lymp sys. and destroyed part of his rib cage and breast plate. The Dr's aren't giving me any idea of prognosis. I am the most calm and logical that I have ever been in my life, bring it on I can handle whatever it is... or so it seems.. I manage a restaurant full time also. I find lately I have more and more trouble sleeping or even sitting still. I know there will come a time for me to deal with the emotions but right now my Dad looks to me and if I'm o.k. he's o.k. type of thing.. I was wondering if you were in the same role with your mom?

We had labs done on Monday at the Onc. and two days later we had a blood tranfusion. They told us it was neccesary to continue with Chemo. I am at the early stages of trying to learn what all of this is. I know that his RBC & HGB were listed as critical on the report?

My dad has a very low pain tolerancy.. we insisted on a port.. no problems at all, not even a bruise.. it is a real quick procedure and saves a lot of future discomfort. I had the Dr's write a script for a cream that numbs the skin and any time the port is used we prepare the area and he feels nothing at all... let me know how it went! Sandra

Hello Everyone, My name is Sandra, my father is 62 and has stage 4 non small cell lung cancer. We live in N.W. Arkansas. My husband drives truck cross country and all of the rest of the family is in Fla so it's just Dad and I doing the best we can. I also manage a restaurant full time so there are never enough hours in a day.