Hello all,
Not many know me, but I do visit often and answer some posts when I feel strong. I do hope you all got through the tough holidays with lots of support and happy memories.
I thought yesterday would be tough since my mom was sick and we didn't know what it was, but today was the day 1 year ago that she was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer. She was in such bad shape and we would have never guessed lung cancer. As if her diagnoses wasn't enough, she passed away only 19 days later. It wasn't even enough time to wrap our minds around the fact that she was terminal.
Anyway, today is so hard to face because it was the beginning of her rapid decline. She was only 66 and always so healthy, biking 20 miles/day with my dad and eating salads for 40 years. It still doesn't make sense to my mind that she won't be back. She was such a fun mom, grandma, and friend that the loss is sometimes too much.
How do you all remain positive and keep going when all you really want to do is curl up in a ball and cry all the time?
You all are such an inspiration to me. Thank you all in advance for you loving words and endless support to so many grieving people.
Sincerely,
Stacey