I must say that as I read all your welcomes, I found myself wiping tears that were falling down my cheeks! I didn't even know they were there. My Gosh how you all know how to move me. I am proud to be in a place where the support is so available. One of you said I have grit and attitude, well, yes, that is the old me and I just found here again...and I love her. I just have one small story to share. After all the chemo and the semi nervous breakdown realizing the new hubby left and I was alone, I bought at least 50 books on how to be a better person. They have been sitting and sitting and just recently, I brought them all back, and with my hefty credit, I bought books on things I am passionate about. I don't need to be a better person, well, in a sense we all do, I just need to be MYself. NOt the self someone else wants or judges. So I thank my cancer for all I have learned. I am alive, and I am starting to kick a bit! Whoooo Hooooo