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I am new here and my mom was just diagnosed with ext. stage SCLC (in her right & left lung, lymph nodes, liver, adrenal glands & pelvic & back bones). It has been rough. She had pneumonia & was in the hospital for 8 days. She got home, was on oxygen & seemed to be doing alright. Now she is back in the hospital with possible blood clots. She was supposed to start chemo today but now has to wait because the pneumonia is not completely gone & they don't want to start chemo till they can get that better. I guess I'm just being impatient. I am NEW to all this & I guess I don't know what to expect. I read all these inspirational stories but I don't know if my mom will be one of those. Everytime we take a step forward, it's like we are pushed 5 steps back. I know she is going to have good days & bad days but she is my mom & I want her to be around for awhile. I'm about to give her, her first grandchild in 2 months & I'm scared crazy she won't be around to see her. I want to tell her how much I need her to fight this but I don't want her to suffer. If anyone has any words that will help me make sense of everything, I would reall appreciate it.

A friend of mine gave me this website when she found out what I was going through. I'm hoping it can help me understand things so I don't feel the burden of bothering my mom about stuff. I'm 27 years old, 7 months pregnant & my mom has masses in both lungs, liver, adrenal glands, lymph nodes & pelvic/back bone. We find out tomorrow what kind of LC it is because they did a liver biopsy last week while she was in the hospital with pneumonia. I'm sure it's probably worse than we hoped but I guess I will have to wait till tomorrow. I'm scared as hell that she won't be around long enough to help me raise my daughter (her first grandchild) that she has been wanting since I married. Life without her will not be the same. I'm used to talking to her 2-3 times a day, EVERYDAY!!! I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I cry all the time when I'm alone & smile when I'm with her because I want her to see me happy, even though a part of me is dying inside. She's the last one to cry & has the best attitude out of all of us. I guess that is good for her. Sometimes I wish she would cry or be mad, but maybe that is her way of dealing right now. Anyway, whoever reads this, THANKS! I needed this!

Thank you very much for that. My mom was just diagnosed and it's nice to hear that there is hope!