Kristynlg15

Thank you guys. Im just having a really hard time with this. There are days that i can barely get out of bed, but then there are days like today where im "ok" at least for the time being.

White lights outside, they are so simple. But i do love the Old fashioned Big colored bulbs...remind me of my uncle jimmy (cant remember why) Prefer white lights on the tree....have colored this year (red white blue, my BF is a marine)

Definatly NOT!! Still in my PJ's (sad i know but necessary today) Cat hair everywhere and lots of boxes from Christmass stuff...tree is set up but cooked. Id probably sit real quiet and pretend i didnt hear the bell.

Jason Aldean CD

Hi Everyone, I recently got an email from this site (which i forgot that i had registered to) and came to realize that all of you are who have been helping my mom get through this. I can't thank all of you enough for being there for her in ways that i couldnt. My grandmother has been gone since Jan 13 2007 and im afraid that it hurts more now than the day she left. People have told me it gets better with time...im having a hard time believing it. Its only getting harder. Ive also heard the typical "she was old, thats what happens" And needless to say, that response doesnt help much either. I still have 3 grandparents and hearing "thats what happens" makes me dread the future more. I think people expect it to be hard losing a parent, or a sibling, or a child. But no one ever talks about how hard it is to lose a grandparent. I feel like a nutcase 100% of the time. The only time i can hold myself together is if i have to be around people. And even then, i keep to myself just so i wont risk losing it. Why is it that all of the other kids seem to be moved on..and im stuck.