Thank you all for your condolences. I am having a delayed reaction to my husband's passing. It,as you know, is very difficult right now. Just when I think I'm going to be okay, the tears start anew. I guess what makes it so difficult is that the last two weeks of his life, he was sedated and on a ventilator for 9 days. When he came off the ventilator, it was very difficult for him to talk and we did not understand a lot of what he was trying to say. He was very agitated at first. Then, it was confirmed that he did indeed have the lymphatic spread of his lungs. It was so aggressive that he did not stand a chance. I never got that last hug from him. There are so many other issues that I am trying to deal with that I tend to ramble a little. Sorry. Prior to my husband going on the ventilator was that he was delusional. The Dr. attributed that to the methadone that he had been taking for his pain. My husband was one to have ill effects from medications. I really don't know if he even knew who I was when he passed. It was such a horrible time for him and me. These are just a few of the issues that I am having trouble dealing with.
I am going to try and upload a photo of my husband and me.
Thanks again for your support.
cdejac
