I have had both a hard time and a wonderful time writing that journal.helps me work some things out as well.
I guess i sort of felt that I was such an idiot for smoking after my mother died of the same thing,and my father died as well,I also have emphesyma just like him though not so bad at this time.
I am going to make an effort at not punishing myself for this disease,and focusing more on life,and that im glad i have it.
I didnt realize i was a good writer,nice to know.John does help a little,Not a great speller or typer LMAO,i give him credit for cleaning up my messes so to speak,(as im sitting here giggling)