Hey all, iam Allie, iam 23, and from the united kingdom, near London.
my Mum was diagnosed with Small Cell Lung Cancer on the 12th febuary 2008, so its all still sinking in for me and my family.
it started really in january, me and mum both had really nasty colds(mine turned out to be bronchitus) but i went to the doctors. it took mum another few weeks to go, that was only because she started to cough up blood and i insisted she go, well her GP sent her for a chest xray then she went and got the results and it had shown a shadow on her left lung, so we had to go see a thorasic/respiritory consultant a week later, he said it was just pnumonia but wanted her to have a bronchoscopy done as a precaution as she is a smoker, anyway the biopsy came back showing up cancer so she had to have a ct scan done, then we saw him on the 12th and he told us it was SCLC in the limited stage as far as they could tell, but that is was inoperable, and he had talked to the oncologist,and if my mums lungs are up to it they want to do chemoradiation on her, we go and see him on tuesday to see if her lungs are okay after the lung function test last tuesday, and if she can have treatment or not,and to talk about everything.
we all want to know how much time she has left with or without treatment, but iam also scared to hear it aswell, cause i dont know what ill do if they say there is nothing they can do and it will be a matter of months or something.
i never thought in my wildest dreams that id have to be tackling this at 23 years old.
iam so scared about loosing my mum, i still need her so much.
iam trying so had to be strong for her, all i feel is both angry and numb all the time. is this normal, i thought id be crying all the time, but i havent cried since we got the news, i dont know wether thats cause it hasnt really sunk in for me yet, cause iam a very emotional person and i cry really easily, where something this big and ive hardly cried when i thought id be a mess!!!
Allie
xoxox