twisterchica

I think I know how you're feeling right now. My birthday is on Wednesday. This will be the first birthday without a card or phone call. My birthday also happens to fall on the 3 month mark after her death. The one month and two month marks were both pretty difficult, so how am I supposed to celebrate on that day? However, I know she'd want me to. Also doesn't help that this week is Mother's Day and the two year anniversary of her diagnosis. Oh boy.

Faith, I'm crying as I type this, and I wish I could say anything that could make you feel better, but there is nothing anyone can say. My heart goes out to you and all of her family.

I agree with Leslie...in that I'm not sure what to say other than "I understand". I've only been without my mom for a little over a month, and I'm really missing the "free therapy", just being able to talk for an hour and have someone listen and give words of encouragement and guidance. I'm not sure if it gets better or worse where you're at, with a year and a half. I guess all I can say is...you've got some people here that know how you feel and have an open ear and a shoulder to cry on...

Missy, I know I just started posting so I'm not sure what I can say, but I, too, have started getting upset when I see little old ladies. At the time, I feel like I'm being irrational, but I have to remind myself that I'm allowed irrational moments now and then. It's also pretty comforting to know that others feel the same way.

Thank you all. I really appreciate all of your kind words and prayers. I didn't get the chance until today to look all around the site and read the stories of people affected by this horrible disease. But I feel like I can't contribute to much on here right now. After she was diagnosed, I told her I didn't want to know all of the details about her treatment because I felt so helpless that I couldn't help her. This makes me feel guilty everyday, because I'm sure she wanted to talk to me about it, but I just wasn't strong enough to handle it all. I honestly can't tell people about what medicine she took or the various ailments she was suffering from...just the generalities about the things she had to be admitted to the hospital for. I also can't give any "words of wisdom" because I haven't gained any wisdom yet. I know it'll get better with time, but there just hasn't been enough time yet I guess.

Hi everyone, my name is Mary and I'm 23 years old. My mother was diagnosed with Stage IV lung cancer that metastasized to her brain in May 2006. At the time, they gave her 2-3 months to live. She responded fairly well to the treatment at first, but by January of this year, it was just too much for her. We all had to say goodbye on February 7. I joined today because it's been one month and quite honestly, I didn't think I'd take it as hard as I have today. My family is spread out all around the country, and I don't really have anyone to talk to that understands. My friends are great, but I can tell they don't know what to do or say to make me feel better, although they'd love to help. So I guess that's why I'm here.