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  1. Wow I have not posted here for quite a while. It seems like my days are pretty full. Sometimes with doing things around here with or for my neighbors and others just being lazy. I never knew how to do that until recently. Maybe I was afraid that if I did I would have to face the fact that I wasn't happy or at peace. Johnny not only encouraged me to learn to relax but gave me the security of his love to make me able to do it. He will be gone 9 years in December and his influence on my life is something that seems to grow instead of deminish. Strage sense if you added all the time we actually had together, dating when young and living together before he died, we probably only had a year. Life. so hard to explain or understand. Recently I have been visiting on line with many friends from school. Nearly 50 years for some and over 50 for most that we never saw or spoke to eachother. What a thrill it is to have someone to share so many memories. Like they say you have to take the good with the bad but I guess it is really that when you get the good some how the bad memores are more about what you missed than what really happened. I hope that I am making sense. Hard to explain. When I married at 17 I was pretty much cut off from my school friends especially when not long after we moved to Louisiana. Came back to California for 9 years but my life was different than theirs. I was raising my children while they finished school and moved on in thier lives. The truth of the matter is looking back that my husband really liked me to be home with the kids and little communication with anyone but my family. Once we moved back to Louisiana for 32 years we lost track of eachother. Now here I am in my old age talking about things we did as kids and thinking how much fun it would be to do them again. Silly things and nostalgic things. I see how much I have missed. While discussing our beautiful Santa Clara Valley that existed before silicon robbed it of not only it's name but its main purpose, the subject turned to the canneries. That led to talk of my mom and the over 40 years she worked to raise 5 kids virtually by herself on the seasonal pay of a cannery worker. That cannery was like another part of her family. A major part of not only her life but ours. One of my friends posted a site with pictures of that old cannery and I sat looking at them and the tears wouldn't stop. All the memories of those days and my mom. How little I realized how much she sacraficed for us. How selfish I feel when I complain about what I sacraficed. How could it ever compare? Mama buried 4 of 6 children. When she retired she fell and broke a knee soon after when that healed she got knocked down by a slamming door at a grocery when the electroic eye failed. One day we passed to take her to the doctor and they were tearing down that cannery. Her death certificate said Lung Cancer, but I will always believe she died of a broken heart. Now here I am back in contact with 2 of my 3 best friends and what do I learn right away? They both lost their parners on December 1st. Nancy her husband of nearly 50 years and Ginny the man she loved and was living with for nearly 20 years. Is it ironic that it was December 1st and my Johnny had died on December 2nd? Now Ginny is having some serious problems and I feel like it was just meant for us to find eachother again at this time in our lives. I think we can help her and in the process help ourselves. So I will say be careful when you take that trip down memory lane. When you find old friends and old memories and see places that are long gone so much comes with them. Don't compound that by watching a vidio of Buddy Holly's death and all the good and bad of the 50s and 60s then listen to a Willie Nelson CD and then share memories of a neighbor who passed a week ago with your neighbors. So much emotion at one time makes you cry but the truth is the good feelings from those memories make the bad memories just as precious. I miss my Mama and I miss my Johnny and oh how I miss those days and places of my youith. I am just so grateful that now for a while I can have some of them back.
  2. Both Judys and Stephanie I hate that you are having health issues and I know that sometimes the fear of what it could be is probably as bad or worse that the other stuff. Please know that I pray for you health everyday along with all of our friends here. Judy MI I am happy that your uncle has you there to fight for him. I have seen far too many times when doctors want to just brush a patient off and not do what is right. Johnny's brother had a massive heart attack and was dead for 5 minutes or more. It left him with brain damage and like your uncle they first sent him to the mental ward. His family had to fight for him. I have been talking to an old school friend and she has been telling me about a family member who has lung cancer. It seems that he is just being given basic care and little incouragement. His wife who is his caregiver is also caregiver to his mom so she doesn't get a whole lot of time. I have told Nancy about this board and she passed to word along. I also told her to check out what info she can find on Cyberknife. When he asked the doctor he was brused off. You know another one of those doctors who says " I know what I am doing, just listen to me and lay down and die". It makes me so angry I hope Annette is doing better and that all on the East Coast are survivors. Now I am watching as my family is getting pounded with a tropical storm. Right now it is just a lot of rain and I hope it stays that way it is really too close for them to think about leaving if it intensifies. From her post that I read I know that Kimmie lives somewhere near my family. I hope all is well with her as well. Don't know why Bruce and a few others are MIA lately. I hope it is just life and not health issues that is keeping them all busy. Guess I will run for now. It has been a long day up at 6 am for blood tests and then out shopping. All of that on 4 hours of sleep was not easy. Take care.
  3. But Katie why not brag? After all here on the West Coast we have the best weather in the country. Annette not sure what your problem is but praying that soon it weighs lighter on you. The bad thing about have such a big " family" and mine always seems to keep growning first on here and now re connecting with people from my school years and other distant blood family through ancestry, is that my prayer list is so long now that I have to just say a prayer that is for all I know and love. Hey come to think of it maybe that is not so bad after all. Maybe if it would catch on and everyone do that we may someday see a more peaceful world and a cure for all kinds of cancer and other diseases. If nothing else it is really great for the spirit of the one saying all those prayers. Nice temperatures here today but the heat is supposed to arrive tomorrow. I have enjoyed having my air off and windows opened for this one day anyway. It should be great out this evening for our lasso golf games. Have a great day or I guess I should say evening now. If anyone wants a real trip down memory lane of both the bad and good of the 50s and 60s go see what I posted on facebook and while you listen don't be ashamed if the tears fall. Each time I watch it I am like a blubbering fool
  4. Judy I am so glad that you are there for your Uncle and Niece. There is a certain mindset in this country the past few years that once a person reaches a certain age or has a certain disease that they just be left to die or worse. They would have to money spent on the less fortunate go to the ones who are healthy and young and the he&& with the ones who helped make this country as great as it is. Thank God there are still some people and some doctors who don't think that way. You go get them Judy and don't let up. It is so wrong and it is time that people start standing up for what is right again and forget about what is profitable.
  5. Your story is really amazing and inspirational. I can not even begin to imagine the emotional roller coaster you have been on much less the health issues you have dealt with. I am sure there are many people here who can take hope from your story and your attitude. Like the others have said please join us in just for fun. As for the Saints I remember when the fans wore bags over thier heads so no one would recognize them at the games. Still they never stopped going or gave up and finally after 40 years they became winners. Every year I go spend the holidays with my children and grandchildren in Houma. Sounds like you don't live far from there. The family get togethers are always noisy but when the Saints play I am sure the noise carries all the way to New Orleans. God Bless you for sharing and wanting to give back. I hope you have many good years ahead with your family and to spend enjoying life. Lillian
  6. I had just written a very long post explaining why I have been MIA for a few days and trying to comment on everyone. I hit the wrong key and it sent me to ancestry and I lost my post. Judy KW glad you made it through all of the unexpected disasters so far from home. MI Judy sorry there was no one here for you. I am glad that is looks like you are finally getting a few things going in the right direction. You are always in my thoughts and prayers because I know what a toll those emotional situations can take. Randy I often just don't take the time to post but I do try to read every day too. Alan and Ginny I am glad that you and everyone of our friends made it through with little or no damage. Katie as I said before, I know little about the treatments today but I do know about caregiving and grief. I am always available to listen or share if you find someone who needs support in those areas. I really do intend to get back to reading the other forums. Sometimes I really need a break from the emotions and also I am learning to take time out just for me. That is something I never really learned to do until recently. I just need to learn how to balance the two now. I have been spending a lot of time reconnection with people from my school days. It is so good to have that bond. I lived so far from my home for so many years and had no one who could share the same memories I have. It is really great. I am planning a few days down in the Bay Area at the end of this month to meet them in person at a picnic and spend some time with my best friend from high school. We hadn't talked or seen eachother in nearly 50 years. I can also spend some time with my brother and other family I have there. I also feel the need to go walk down Castro Street, the main street in Mountain View where I grew up. It has changed a lot but there are still some of the old buildings left and I need to know if it still feels the same. Silly I know but I was gone for so long. One of my neighbors was knocking at my door before I had my first cup of coffee this morning. The doctors office had called for her to go get blood work done this morning. I took her there and then we stopped so she could get some groceries. She has a heart problem and gets very nervous about going to the doctor. I told her I will take her when she needs to go. It is just too had for her to be riding the bus and walking. Anyway that go my day off to a very slow start. Now I will do my dirty dishes and fix some lunch and later I will watch the game on tv. I still love the Giants even if they are in a slump right now. I know they have some of the best players in baseball and even if the didn't I have been a fan for 52 years sense they moved to SF from NY. I am not about to stop now. Have a great day everyone and Judy MI you asked for posts and I am afraid I gave one longer that you asked for. No one has ever accused me of being short on words.
  7. Judy KW, Randy, Sue, Annette and Ginny, Alan and all of you on or near the East Coast. Saying a lot of prayers for your safty. Please let us know how you are as soon as you are able. Judy KW looks like you left your huricane prone Island home to go up there to NJ and get caught in a big one. Hope you are moved to a house or hotel. Stay safe. Not much going on here today. I took 3 of my neighbors out to the farm and we loaded up on fruits and vegetables. I bought yet another watermellon but I picked it out this time and it is not as good as the one the owner picked for me last time. That is a bummer because I normally only eat it once or twice a year and got another one because the two I had before were so good. Peaches on the other hand are great!!!
  8. I am hoping the reason that it is so slow here today is because all of our friends on the East Coast are taking the precautions they need to take for Irene. I am not sure how many of you will need to evacuate but please listen when they tell you to leave and take no chances. Homes can be replaced. Lives can not. I think those of us here understand that better than most. Many Many prayers that you will all remain safe and suffer no serious losses. Bud and Judy sounds like you both have a busy time as well as does Katie. Enjoy your what time you do have to rest and stay safe in all that you do. Just a quick word to say that one of my neighbors passed this morning. She was taken to a nursing home last week to spend her last days. She was a dear person and will be missed by all who knew her. She never said good by with out ending with these words " God Bless, I love you". I can't think of any better right now.
  9. Wow what crazies are going on everywhere this week. Must be a full moon. First let me say that I am glad that all of our friends survived the quake with only their nerves shatered. It could have been much worse. Bud there should be only one more month of real summer weather so it should get a lot more comfortable for your rides in the not too distant future. Judy KW glad that huricane is not hitting your home but hope you are paying attention to it's movement toward where you are now. Judy MI. I am glad that you had a great day with friends. I hope all else is better. Need a shoulder let me know. It would be long distance but sometime that is the best. Katie I am sorry that you are having problems finding buddies. I did sign up to help but really my best efforts are in the area of grieving. I have severeal friends that are needing that help right now but if it comes up I am available by phone. I do have limited minutes during the week but unlimited on the weekend. Sometimes I get to doubting how much I can really help then I get a comment like my neighbor made a few days ago. She said that after her husband passed she doesn't know what she would have done if I hadn't been here to talk to. That makes all of the effort worth while. Eric good luck with the car. Sounds like a winner wth that gas milage.The price just stays up no matter what world conditions are. I think it is just because they can. The don't need a reason. Get caught up on your rest. Sounds to me that just in every day living you get a pretty good workout Alan , Ginny and Annette Hello! Hope you are all doing well after the big shake and Annette hope you can get caught up and have some time for R+R. Things have been really nuts around here this week. I have been having TMJ headaches that go from one place to another but I am handling them for now anyway. Sunday our managers were in church when he had some kind of eprsode and they had to call 911. He was in the hospital until last night. That same night one of the neigbors put the plug in her sink because she thought a bug had came through the drain. Then she accidentally hit the spikot and turned the water on. Didn't know it until she walked in water. They are working on drying it out and fixing the damage. She and the neighbor below her had to move out for a few days because of the heaters they had drying and the repair work that will be done. Not to be out done another neighbor ended up in the hospital yesterday for most of the day. That is a whole other story. I will just say she comes to me for everything and there are times I want to shake her. You just can't help someone who doesn't want or know how to help themself Also learned that one of my neighbors passed over the weekend. He had only lived here a short while when he went in the hospital in April for surgery. You guessed it Lung Cancer. He was in rehab all of this time but had either a stroke or heart acttack. Not sure witch, appearantly it was not the cancer. Also another neighbor was taken to a nursing home because her one daughter was her only real care and she was ready to colapse. Hospice only came for a few hours. Not sure what is going on at the home but her medication isn't right for some reason. She keeps screaming and calling her for daughter. Well sense that seems to cover the bad things I will say that I am still enjoying reliving things with people I went to school with. It is amazing what comes back from 50 years ago when you have someone to share those memories with I am making tenative plans to go down for a few days the end of September. I can visit my brother and family there and spend some time with my best friend from school after so many years. Oh I have just about written a book. I am far too long winded even if it is with my fingers Have a great day everyone.
  10. Good morning both Judys. I have been kind of slow motion for a few days. That headache really gets me down. I guess I will have to give in soon and get a new partial made for my bottom dentures. These are old and last year I broke some of the teeth off. Not sure if that is why or just because they are worn but TMJ has really been kicking in a lot lately. You just wouldn't believe all of the problems something that sounds so simple can cause. I am just getting caught up a little and hate to have to put out that kind of money again so soon. Social Security doesn't allow for many extras and they don't pay for dental. Of coarse dental insurance will say that tmj is a medical problem and medical will say it is a dental problem. So no one pays but me. The last time that I had to have a lot of work because of that it was $10,000. Needless to say that is not going to happen again. So I will just get a new partial and hope it does the trick. In the mean time I have to start saving for my trip to spend the holidays with my family. That is never cheap. I want to be there by December 10th for my grandson's graduation from college and stay until my granddaughter has her baby in late January. I love having that time with them but boy do I miss my own home and my own things and routine. I am hoping to take a short trip down to the Bay Area the end of September. A bunch of people that I went to school with are having a picnic and I am invited. I could visit with my brother and other family for a couple of days and also spend some time with my best friend from high school that I just found after nearly 50 years. Will just have to see what happens with my dental work if I get it done. Judy I have been watching that storm. Looks like your home town is going to get it for sure then it just may come up where you are. Just be aware and be safe my friend. Well I need a shower and a short walk then I think I will run to the farmers market and see if they have any fresh prunes. We had a discussion about them on our school group site and got me to thinking about them. Just one thing for all of you who are not from California. They are prunes not prune plums! One of my neighbors got a lasso golf game at a yard sale and we played it last night. It was a lot of fun. I couldn't play too long because my back and head were both telling me to quit but it was fun while it lasted. You get a chance to play go for it. It is really a lot of fun.
  11. Just a minute to post. TMJ causing vascular headaches. Judy MI I know how easy it is to turn to work when upset. Just be carefull and don't overdo. Bud once again I must say that I really admire your determination. I can't imagine riding a bike that far in that kind of heat. Judy I always thought that New Orleans and Los Angles were a toss up for bad drivers. Given all of the freeways LA would probably have the upper hand there. Then one day we drove through Denver at 11 am. My husband who was a good driver and made it through New Orleans all of the time and never had to stop in LA had to pull over and rest his nerves. So my vote goes for Denver.
  12. Judy I am hoping that all went the way that you wanted it to at the wedding. Sometimes when you constantly have to be the one who does the trying you get to the point that it had better work or you just can't try anymore. I hope that you can meet somewhere in the middle I will keep you in my prayers. Katie I hope that you feel better soon Just remember you can not please everyone. I know how much you want to help people especially those with cancer. Would I be way out of line to say that sometimes people who are not very nice get cancer too. I dont' mean to sound mean but I think you know what I mean. Cancer can change a lot of things but some people will still expect a lot of others to the point of being unreasonable. Picture is a little long but hey anyway I can lose 5 pounds I will take it The picture was taken on the Boardwalk in Santa Cruz CA. My granddaughter had gone down onto the beach. My sciatica keeps me from walking in the sand. I was leaning on the rail waiting for them to get back up when she took the picture. Katie we have temperatrues in the mid to high 90s but the low humidity makes it feel about 5 degrees cooler. A breeze comes up in the evenings so I always enjoy the time some of us who are neighbors gather and and talk and enjoy the evening. I am hoping that Judy is doing alright out and about on her travels and that Annette has time for a little rest between stacks of work and that Eric didn't find something at home that he didn't expect to have to deal with. Maybe we will hear from all of them tomorrow. Good night everyone.
  13. Running a little late this morning but wanted to stop in and wish everyone a happy and safe weekend. Thanks to JudyMI I now have a new picture up. Hope it doesn't scare anyone off I also chnged my signature after so many years of leaving it as it was and most of the time off of my posts. Weather here is supposed to be fantastic today so I plan on spending a good part of the day outside. Again have a great weekend everyone. Eric still waiting to hear how you are doing now that you are home.
  14. Thank you so much Judy for posting my picrure. Believe it or not I came straight here so I have not seen it on here yet but am sure any way that you did it will be fine. I am so happy that things seem to be going better for you. You have such a good heart and a good outlook on life. You deserve the best. Bud good luck with the fishing. I have thought about going but I have to go up to the lake in the mountains and I can only be in the sun for a short time. Not sure if it is worth getting up to leave at daylight to go. I won't drive up there in the dark. Hope you catch a bunch and enjoy them. Kyak sounds like a lot of work but might get you in your lakes that are low. Annette hope that you get caught up soon. It is a real bummer when you have to spend so much of your time on work. Try to get some rest too and come let us know how things are going when you can. Laurie good that you have that time with your sister. I am sure she is happy to have you there. Eric you will probably sleep for a day or so then be out on another adventure. Please let us know how things are going for you now that you are home. Sara, Stephanie and Alan I hope you are all doing well as well as Judy. We tend to worry when we don't hear from someone for a day or so then forget that when we get busy. Just know that you are thought about and missed when not here. Lunch time then some sewing and tv for a while. I think I will call my old friend from school later. She had a belated memorial for her husband who passed of Kidney Cancer in December. I am thinking she may need someone to talk to. One of my neighbors moved to a nursing home so she can get 24 hour care until she passes. Her one daughter was taking care of her with only a little help from neighbors and hospice. She probably has only a couple of days left but it was time for her daughter to get a break for some sleep and rest. Please keep Betty and her family in your prayers. Not sure what kind of cancer she has but it is growing like a tree with branches in her body. They say she has big lumps all over. I have never heard of that before. I just pray that she is in no pain and for her family to find peace. She never left or said good by without saying" I love you, God Bless". Such sadness always when we get close to people. Got to run now and have some lunch. Thanks again Judy.
  15. First of all I want to say I am sorry if I hurt anyones feelings. I would never do that on purpose. What I had meant to say is that some men, not all, can be asses one minute then children the next. I doubt they even realize they are doing it. Just to say that they are not bad people they just somehow get up on the wrong side of the bed and want to spout off or they get their feelings hurt and act like children. Please forgive me if I gave the wrong impression. I know women can act the same way sometimes. JudyMI I am so glad that you had that TEXT. I know that you were really hoping to hear from him. That shows that not all is lost you have room to come together again. You have been a caregiver and you know how frustrating it can be at times. You can be so angry at the situation and sometimes it comes out to the one you love as if you are angry with them. I think your birthday showed just how much he loves you. I pray that you will work it all out. It is not fun leaving a marriage even a bad one much less a good one. Safe journys Eric you have inspired so many and spread so much awareness and goodwill. Thank you and so glad you got to see a baseball game. That is one of my favorite pass times, watching the games. Judy KW thanks for reminding me to watch what I say and how I say them. Sometimes my thoughts don't keep up with the word I write. I hope that your trip is a good one the rest of the time and that chemo is not a problem again. I know that I am missing many of you but it is getting late. I spent time after watching the game looking up a boy I went to school with on The Viet Nam wall. I alway suspected that he was killed there and my suspecions were confirmed today. I didn't find his name yet but know that I will in time. Such sad business even after all of these years. He was one of my best friends during several years of school. Take care all and again Alan and all of you other men I am very sorry if my comment made you feel bad. That was never my intention.
  16. Good morning everyone. Judy KW glad that you finally got in. My old way of logging in just isn't working and I lost my picture,. Don't have a clue as to how to put one up. If there is someone who can post one for me I will send it to you. Otherwise you will see my blank wall. Glad to see you back Annette but sorry that you are not feeling well. I think having Marco in a facility right now is probably the very best thing for you and him. Take care of yourself right now. You deserve a break from all of the other stuff. MI Judy I am so sorry that you are still having that problem. Men can be such little boys one minute and such a**es the next. Yes we do enable them to act the way they do. I began to realize that after 40 years and it was too late to change a bad situation without just ending it. Best thing for me but very hard on my family. Bud the heat and drought there and the big dust storm in Arizona are reminders of the 20s. I have seen pictures from that time that look a lot like what we are seeing now. Stay safe in the heat. I know that I am forgetting many but can't think who and what to say right off hand. I know that Eric is getting ready to head home. I am so pleased that for the most part he saw the best of this country. He will have a lot of special memories. Has anyone heard from Bruce lately? Wonder what is going on up in the Northern reaches. Judy, Karen and Sara and Stephanie and all who are dealing with chemo and the issues that brings, I salute you. I know that it takes special people to deal with that all of the time and remain sane. God Bless and all of you with other issues as well. Yes Judy connecting with friends from the past is really great. I lived in Louisiana for so many years and even when living in California my marriage had me disconnected from all of my school and even family friends. Having a chance to share some of those old memories with others is a real blessing to me. Now I need to go out and try to walk for a while. Not doing a lot of walking again yet but trying. Just when I think I will be doing good the sciatica starts acting up again. I sure know how not to move furniture from now on Back and leg pain and I have a problem with muscle spasms in my sides. I pulled that big muscle that goes around the middle of my body one time at work. The pain was the worse I have ever had and there was no relief. I didn't think a person could hurt that bad and not pass out. Boy was I wrong. Ever sense then I get spasms and the least I exercise the more often I get them. So I try to keep up with them and walking but it is just so easy to get lazy, especially when something is hurting already. Oh well that is life. So many of you have so much more to worry about that I feel guilty complaining. Have a great day all.
  17. I see no one else has posted yet and I am thinking that everyone is having a problem logging on. Judy asked to let people know that she keeps being asked for her login and then is told it is wrong. I think I know why but not sure. Maybe she is getting the log in page for Lungevity. It is different than the one for LCSC. Judy MI just a word to you. I hope that all works out for you. I know I had that some problem with my husband, the anger and always putting me down. I came to spend Thanksgiving with my family here in 'California that year. The first ever away from my kids and grandkids. It gave me time to think but things didn't get better and later my marriage ended. It was hard but I like myself a lot better now than I did then. Maybe your husband is going though a mid life thing and just needs to be shook up. If he is you are doing exactly what he needs. Well I have to run and post how I got on here. Have a great day all.
  18. Wow it took me a while to read the last three days posts. I have been a little busy so havn't been here in a few days. I guess I am an off and on regular. One thing I think I have been on the board as long or longer than most have. Bud sorry your lake is unfishable. That happened a couple of years ago here. All of the lakes were so low that they left the boat launches high and dry. We made up for it this past winter. Judy you really need to be careful doing all of those running tricks. You are still young enough but I doubt in shape enough to be doing rodeo or animal tricks Seriously I hope you didn't do any real damage and will be as good as new soon. Judy KW sounds like you are having a good vacation. Enjoy and don't over do. Don't you just love making cobblers? I made a plum cobbler a couple of days ago. Alan I made up my mind a long time ago that I was not going to pay someone to scare me to death. I don't do rollercoasters. My kids on the other hand never met one they didn't want to try. Katie I am so glad that you got to meet so many people and of coarse I am as upset as you about them always associating smoking with Lung Cancer. I tend to think it is a defence they use for themselves hoping it means that if they ddin't smoke they don't have to worry. I know you must have really enjoyed the weather in Seattle and going back to the heat must be a real drain. Where is Annette? Eric you have had an amazing trip and I think a lot of that has to be because you are an amazing person. I ride Amtrack every year and know that you can never be in a hurry. I will say that the Sunset Limited that I ride has changed a lot over the past few years. They won some kind of law suit with the freight company (Union Pacific) who owns the rails so the long waits on the side for the fright trains to pass are pretty much a thing of the past. At least on that route. Enjoy your time left in Seattle and have a safe trip home. Stephanie and Sara and Paulette hope you all have a safe and restful week. My son was supposed to have a job in San Francisco and come up to see me for a couple of days while he was close but the job was canceled at the last minute. That was a disappointment. I am hoping some other job will come up close and he will be able to pay at least a short visit. I joined a site on Facebook with a lot of people who went to my old High School. How wonderful it is to share those memories after being away and cut off from all of them for so long. I was hoping to find my best friend from high school but she was not on there. I decided to search again as I have done many times over the past few years. It had to be meant to be because I found her in just a few minutes in the San Jose phone book. I called and we talked for nearly two hours. Oh the memories She told me that she had just read an old letter the day before. It was a letter I had written to her when I first moved to Louisiana in 1961. I had quit school to get married. She also told me that her horoscope for yesterday had said whe would be in contact with an old friend that she hadn't heard from in years. Emagine that. You know how you just know things are meant to be? She lost her husband on December 1st and that was just one day before 8 years that Johnny had been gone. She is also alone and struggling with her grief. Somehow I feel that I am meant to try and help her. She has invited me to go spend a few days with her. I just may do that soon if circumstances will let me. I guess it is time for me to get off of here and go walk. I think this thing is tellin me this is too long because my words are bouncing around and hard to see. Have a great day everyone and please excuse any mistakes this thing is going nuts on me.
  19. Good morning. Just a quick note then off to the shower and pick up donuts for meeting today. I had a lazy weekend just sewing and watching the ball games. Bud I am working on another of the plastic canvas gingerbread houses and also a tissue box cover in plastic canvas. I am also working on a baby quilt and crocheting a baby blanket. I take turns working on each for a while. Judy I hope that you got your cold front and the weather didn't get too violent when you did. Maybe too they will get you something to get your stomach straight. Stephanie I agree with you about Washington being a beautiful place. I never got up to Seattle but lived in Centralia and loved it there. I also spent some of the happiest and some of the most heartbreaking days of my life there. Eric I hope you find a room that you can afford and that will be up to standard. I would hate to get stuck in a strange city in a motel that may or may not be up to standards both clean wise and morally so. Paulette hope you get some cool air soon and that we hear from Judy KW soon as well. I have got to run now or I will not get the donuts in time and I am hoping to get at least a little walking in before I go.
  20. Wow I have been gone a few days and really can't catch up with everyone. Nice to see so many people here again. It had gotten slow for a while. I had my first of the month chores to do, shopping and paying bills, so I have kept busy. Don't spend as much time on the computer sense my back has been bothering me more. I have found out that I am not super woman. I will restrict what I lift to the weight of a gallon jug of water. I should have known better but all of my life I have just rushed in and did what needed to be done without asking or waiting for help. I helped my husband through two back surgeries and saw all three of my children though back surgery. I don't want to go there My friend BENGAY is helping me some and using common sense is helping me more. Too bad I didn't find either of them sooner Working 4 different sewing projects and watching Giants baseball. Today I am going to see Cowboys and Aliens with one of my neighbors and next Wednesday we are having our luau again. This time they will have to have more people helping out. This old body of mine has gone on strike. Bud don't overdo out in that heat. Stay safe and if you go catch a good mess of fish and while eating them think about me and how much I would enjoy them. I have to get myself up and around better so I can try out my fishing hole again. Judy have a safe trip and Annette try to enjoy the time you have without the kid. He is where he needs to be right now and you need a break from all of the drama. Eric love your photos and stories. I too enjoy seeing and hearing about places I have not been and re visiting those I have through you. I know I am forgetting so many of you. Please know that you are all in my thoughts, prayers and best wishes even when I am MIA for a few days. I hate to rub it in but then again maybe I do like to brag. Our high here yesterday was 89. It is supposed to climb back into the 100+ range for a few days but over all we have had one of the coolest summers on record. I think that you have all stole part of our heat and I truly thank you all Have a good day all.
  21. lilyjohn

    Missing Dennis ....

    I remember when we first became friends about a year after we both lost our special guys. This was one of the first stories that you told me and I never forgot. I am so sorry that you have lost your Buddy but so glad that you have had him to see you through these past almost 9 years. When Misty died I went through pretty much the same thing. It was different for me because for a long time I looked at her as Johnny's dog. I felt like I was just taking care of her for him. A part of me held back from showing her the kind of affection that he had and I really struggled with that. She had been very used to doing pretty much what she wanted until we were together and I worked at teaching her some manners. I didn't like her begging food when we were eating but that is how she had lived with Johnny. After his death I tried to continue with the plan to teach her manners but just couldn't do it. Every time I gave in and fed her something I was eating I had a hard time. I kept beating myself up because I hadn't just let it go on the way it had been with them before I came back into his life. As time passed though I could almost hear him laughing at me each time I gave her a bite or bought something special for her. In time she wiggled her place into my heart and I didn't even realize it until I lost her. I can't believe that she has been gone a year. It was a year on the second and sometimes I can still almost feel her watching me put my shoes on getting ready to race me to the door. As for tuning lose of his things I still have a lot of Johnny's things and just can't make myself let them go. Even my clothes that I wore while with him seemed like they left a hole in me when I got rid of them. One of the hardest was a red blouse. I usually wear browns and blues and tans, nothing very bright. One day we were going somewhere and I put on that red shirt and Johnny fell in love with it. He told me that I should wear red all of the time. Well as crazy as it sounds and as heartbroken and lost as I was I wore that blouse to his memorial service. I wore it for him. It hasn't fit me for years but it took me until last year to let it go. As you said each thing feels like I am losing a piece of him, part of our life together and I almost panic thinking that someday it will all be gone. Take care my friend and know that even though we don't talk as much as we used to that I am still here for you just as I know that you are there for me. We have traveled a long road together.
  22. Hello everyone. I guess it is time to pop in for a few minutes. I have been staying in pretty much fighting the effects of a head cold. They always lead to problems with the TMJ and Acid Reflux. That is why I always dread having a sinus attack or a cold. Feeling a good bit better but still staying in out of the heat. I get that little tickle and start coughing and can't stop Sciatica is still causing problems too but I have made up my mind starting tomorrow I will go back to exercise and try some walking. Not doing those things makes me more of a target for the muscle spasms. Judy I hope you didn't have any injury from your fall. I give you a lot of credit for trying that bike. I haven't ridden in years and would be afraid of breaking something. That 3 wheel sounds good but here I would have no place to store it. Not sure how that would work going uphill. I can just picture myself going back down backwards. lol Sara you really got my attention. There is nothing as good as fresh fried fish especially any species of perch. I consider Crappie just a big perch and boy are they good. It is alright to cook them other ways once in a while but really isn't frying the only way they are really good? Judy it has been really hot here this past week but is supposed to cool down into the 90s over the next few days. I know that sounds hot to all of you but really without the humidity it is much cooler than what you are having. Janet I am an early morning person. I usually go to bed around 10:30 and sleep from 11 to around 5:30 but this week I have slept more. I think I am catching up from all of the running when my daughter and granddaughter were here and I have had that cold so I guess I needed the extra sleep. Just enjoy your good sleep but don't overdue on the cleaning. No need making yourself too tired. I guess Bud is out having a good fishing trip and Eric is out sight seeing. I hope they are both staying cool. Well I guess I will run. I may just take a short shut eye. Have a good evening everyone.
  23. Some things in life just don't make any sense. Such a terrible thing to happen. My heart goes out to you and your family and your grandmother especially.
  24. Good morning Bud and everyone else. I am feeling a little better. It is just that my ears make me feel strange sometimes. I am never really dizzy but feel like it wouldn't take much to be. If that would clear and the tickle that sends me into coughing fits, I would feel pretty good considering. The weather is just crazy this year everywhere. Either record heat or record rain or drought, even those big sand storms in Arizona. It feels almost like someone is trying to tell us something! I hope everyone is doing ok today. I am going to try and pass the vacuum. My carpet is needing it really bad and I hate to stir up the dust but it is getting to me anyway. Between the allergies and the sciatica I haven't done much sense my daughter left a week ago today. So I guess I will get busy and check back later today. Just one thing has me confused. Katie has asked for prayers for her brother's family on facebook and posted the story about a drowning. Is that her brother that drowned or just a close friend
  25. Hi everyone. I thought I should stop by for a minute and see what is going on. My head cold keeps hanging on and my ears are causing me problems now. Not sure how much is fluids and how much is the TMJ . I just know my head feels full and ears hurt and I get that tickle and cough. That doesn't make me good company so I am staying in most of the time, You all have so many problems I feel like a wimp when I talk about a cold getting me down. I just hope all of you are doing better. Judy and Judy am praying that both of you get test results that say NED. It is time for you both to get a break and I don't mean a bone broken Judy MI Janet I am with Judy. I am very clastraphobic and they would have to knock me out to even get me in one of those things. I too hope that your test come out NED. There is just too many having to worry right now. I keep praying that soon that will end. Annette I think you deserve a rest from that kid and his problems. You have enough with your own health issues and with your mom to care for. You too I hope have tests that say NED. As for the kid my nieces daughter had a drug problem. She met a guy that had one too my niece told her to clean up or get out. She chose to get out and that tough love was what saved her. Now her and her husband(she married the guy and they both cleaned up) have a sweet little girl and are hoping for another. They are both great parents. So you see there is still hope for your nephew. Bud I have been watching that weather. Here we are used to long stretches over 100 but this year we have only had a few days at a time. It is supposed to be up to 105 for a few days then go back down. What saves us is the lack of humidity. Our humidity usually runs about 10 to 15% during the summer. Eric I enjoy hearing about your travels. I always enjoyed seeing this beautiful country. I went to a lot of places but many I have missed so enjoy " seeing " them through your eyes. Keep the stories and pictures coming. Stephanie I loved living in Washington but that year it was pretty dry during the summer. The winter was so hard for me I just remember rain and gloomy days but my heart was gloomy at the time. Don't you just love having those farmer's markets? I try to take advantage all summer. There is nothing like fresh locally grown fruits and vegetables. Well I don't think I have forgotten anyone. I am thinking about Sara too and a few others but for now I think I need some food and to rest my head for a while. Being on the computer seems to make my headache worse sense I have this cold.
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