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AmyLW

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  1. I had posted about my Father. He had Squamus cell carcinoma. This post has been so hard for me. He died the day after Thanksgiving. I still can hardly believe he is gone. I made a post on the wall of rememberance. His name is Charles Stueber. I keep so many of you in my thoughts and still lurk on occasion. I hate cancer. It is just so evil and unfair. My baby sister just turned 18 in Jan, and is pg with her first baby and I feel so angry that it took him away. And what about my babies? And me. I need him too. I miss him so much. I just want to hug him one more time. Ugh! I did not mean to fall apart again. This seams to be hitting so dang hard now.
  2. It will be better for both of you. You need the support and worse case, she can be semi prepared for whatever the outcome and hopefully this is not cancer and you will both grow closer from the experiance. I know my Step Mom, wants to know everything and be there for him. When he leaves her out, it hurts her. If she married you, it means she loves and cares about you and would want to be there for you. I am keeping you in my thoughts.
  3. So sorry your Mom has to go through this. But welcome. This is an awesome group of people and I am sure you will find wonderful support here.
  4. I am so glad to read you are in remission. What a gift. I can so relate to you on the medical incompetency. I never had lung cancer. But I had a benign tumor wrapped around my spinal cord. I don't know when it started, but I can trace the symptoms back to around 16 or so. I started going to the DR around 19. From 21-23 I went to 8 different Dr's complaining of symptoms from migraines so bad I couldn't get out of bed for weeks, to my hand balling up and not being able to open it, severe imobilizing shoulder pain. My legs were almost completely paralyzed I had to hold a wall to walk and would still fall. My baby was 13 months old. I made my way to an er and they admitted me immediatley. This believe it or not is the very short version, but basically when they saw the tumor they told me I would most likely(95% chance) never walk again. And 60% chance I would die. I walked hours after I woke up. I only had paralasis in my left arm, and they told me it was permanant, but again, Thankfully they were wrong. I have mild nerve damage still and my ring finger is still not right. But all very liveable! I am so glad you overcame thier idiocy!!!!
  5. I am sorry to meet you this way. Please know my heart is with you. I have a diferent relationship with my Dad and my Mom and Grandparents are all gone. But I have 3 sisters, and we are learning to get through this together. I too am the one who couldn't help but think of the fact that this will take him. It was always and still is, on my mind. I have two children, and my oldest who is 8 will have many memories of him, but it crushes me that my baby(20 months) will never remember his Grandpa. He is almost finished planning his funeral. It just hurts me to the core. He is still trying to work as much as he can, he said what I have known all along, when he can't work it is over. He doesn't want to sit around waiting to die. We were lucky, it did not get to his heart. I truly hope you have as much good time with her as possible. I couldn't figure out how to e-mail you, but I would love to talk, so e-mail me at AmyCurt@excite.com. Amy
  6. I know what I forgot..The cancer has spread to his Lymph nodes and he has a tumor growing in a lymph node in his neck. We fond that out the end of July.
  7. Well, To start with, it was inoperable, and it was in his lung, I believe 5 inches by 5 inches, they had to do radiation right away to get the pressure off of his bronchial tube, to take the immediate danger away, but during the radiation 6 more started, and it was in his bronchial tube and somewhere else, I can't think right now. But then they tried chemo and it did nothing. It got worse. Now he is on iressa, but switched to taking it every other day, because he is in so much pain. They are not trying to save him, just make him more comfortable during the time he has. He goes in on Monday for a scan to see if it is in his bones and/or spine, which they believe it is. He arranged the funeral to take the stress off of us. He will not be buried, and does not want his body on display. I am much more comfortable with it all today. It takes me a while to adjust between each change. I am going to see him on Sunday. It will be hard. My step mom said he looks so fragile, like the littlest bit of wind will send him flying. That will be hard. My strong proud Daddy. BTW, The hair did give me a shocked smile!
  8. Well, That wouldn't work. Me and my husband work opposite shifts, he works days and I work eves so that we do not have to put the kids in daycare. ALthough he may be getting laid off soon,,, and that will make it possible, hopefully only temporarily. Well, I may still try to make something work. My main problem is my FIL is the only one who watches my kids and now with him being sick he can't, but I may have to find a way to make this work.
  9. Yep- I am in Cambridge. But I work eves. Mon-Fri. Do they have weekend meetings? I am 30, so I am guessing I would fit right in.
  10. Yes, I do have two amzing children. I have a 20 month old son. and my daughter will be 8 this weekend. They did not come easy. We had so many miscarriages. So they are truly a special gift. My Dad went in today and they think the cancer may have spread to his spine and bones now. He did give up. He said, they told me a year and it has been a year and he is stopping working. He is litterally waiting to die. My Father in law went in fo a scan of his liver today, to see what is going on. ANd he has a tumor on his kidney. My Mother in law beat a melanoma on her head and abnormal cells in her breast, this year. So I am there with you Andrea. It seams this is just the way life goes. (((Hugs))) So nice to meet you all!
  11. Hi. It's not just that he is planning..He has arranged. It is good, that he will have it done, one less thing to do. But it brings a finality. I am not ready for this. I lost my Mother officailly at 15, but she left when I was young and All my Grandparents are gone. I won't take meds. I am still nursing and seeing as I have reason to be upset I won't medicate. I know some people do, If I felt upset and I had no stress, I would, but there is so much more going on then just his cancer or my FIL's tumor or just daily stuff. So I expect to be stressed until it is all resolved. Meanwhile I am just trying to reach out to people who understand and can relate. It is dificult when no one can relate. Or you feel like a burden when you need an ear. We have a history of depression on both side of my family, so I am watching and if my grief and sadness should effect my standard of living, I surely will see my way to my Dr. Thank you for sharing your pov. It helps so much to know,both sides. I am greatful for anyone who takes the time to offer support. Amy
  12. I may take you up on that sometime. I found out, last night he was up most of the night with leg cramps. They gave him pain meds and asked him to come in tomorrow vs the 29th, just to make sure all is okay. They told him it was common for faces to swell. I have no idea. i am lost. I try to never cry and be positive for him, but that is not always what he wants. He is a realist and he feels his time is ending. I try to counteract everything with a positive coment and he gently reminds me how everything has failed so far. He tells me we all die sometime. I know that. But, it all seams unfair. I feel just numb. You know, we never cried in the begining and he seamed to try to make us cry. I don't know. I am just so tired. My sisters and I atleast seam to be getting closer. We are learning to like each other. Sorry. I just needed to ramble tonight. I have had this feeling we are nearing the end. Amy
  13. Oh gosh I just looked up Superior vena cava syndrome and that is likely since he has a tumor in the lymph node in his neck. Oh gosh. Thank you everyone for the welcome and the advice. I told my Step Mom he needed to call right away this am. I am not ready for this. My Mother died when I was 15 and now I am 30. It just seams like too much.
  14. Hi. My Name is Amy. I am sorry to be here and sorry you all are here. My Dad has squamus cell carcinoma. He has gone through radiation, which didn't help, chemo, didn't help and now he is on iressa.Which is part of what brings me here. His face swoll up yesterday and he was so sick he couldn't get out of bed. Has anyone had experiance with this at all? I am hoping to be able to offer some support and I know I will be asking for some too. Recently my Father in law was told he has a cancerous tumor on his kidney and he has spots on his liver(Which we are hoping mean nothing). About a year or so ago, my Mother in law had a melanoma removed(succesfully) and pre cancerous cells from her breast. Anyway. I am A mommy to 2 miracle babies and I have a wonderful husband and I try to focus on them, but I have been very overwhelmed. My Dad called me to tell me he is making his funeral arrangements, and I completely fell apart. Thank you for any help you can offer. Amy
  15. Hi. My Name is Amy. I am sorry to be here and sorry you all are here. My Dad has squamus cell carcinoma. He has gone through radiation, which didn't help, chemo, didn't help and now he is on iressa.Which is part of what brings me here. His face swoll up yesterday and he was so sick he couldn't get out of bed. Has anyone had experiance with this at all? I am hoping to be able to offer some support and I know I will be asking for some too. Recently my Father in law was told he has a cancerous tumor on his kidney and he has spots on his liver(Which we are hoping mean nothing). About a year or so ago, my Mother in law had a melanoma removed(succesfully) and pre cancerous cells from her breast. Anyway. I am A mommy to 2 miracle babies and I have a wonderful husband and I try to focus on them, but I have been very overwhelmed. My Dad called me to tell me he is making his funeral arrangements, and I completely fell apart. Thank you for any help you can offer. Amy
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