Saw the Dr again today, she is concerned that we may not be able to take care of mom at home much longer. Talks to mom about in patient hospice, mom begins to cry....first time since all this started. It is painful to see her cry, but I'm almost glad that she is able to release some of her fear and sadness. The Dr has offered her the possiblity of Gemzar (sp?) by itself because she thinks that is all she will be able to tolerate, as she is becoming weaker every day. mom wants to try this, she said " I just can't imagine walking away without even trying to fight." My dad and I have told her that we will stand by her and support her in any decision she makes. Right now we are trying to figure out how we can get her back home with Dad, as she has been living with me since she was discharged from the hospital. I took a leave of absence from my job as an RN in Pedatric ICU, to care for her, (she requires total assistance with eating, tranferring from wheelchair to chair, bathrrom and bathing) but my family can no longer make it without my paycheck, and I must return to work soon. I'm going to try to find someone to stay with her 8-5 a few days a week, and since I work three 12 hr shifts a week, I will drive to their town (only about 45 min away) after I take my girls to school on my days off. So, that's our latest update, I apprieciate all of you and your prayers.