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alyssa0323

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  1. Sharon, I just love your bracelets. I will be purchasing one of them very soon in memory of my mom !!! Hugs.
  2. I hate this disease so very much! And I am so tired of hearing about all the people that it is taking away from us. :0( My thoughts are with you and her family, always.
  3. Hi Everyone! I know I dont post alot here on the site, but I do log on almost every day and read the submissions and I try to come here to still find some sort of comfort. Today marks the day six months ago that I lost my mom... still not any easier and I really dont want to hear anymore how "it gets easier".. It doesn't get easier, it just becomes a new way of "living" I guess. I miss her so much. I will say however, last month, she let me know that she is still with me. I feel for those who havent experienced such a feeling because it was a feeling that I will NEVER forget !!! :0) It was at a time that I needed her and wanted to run to her. She was there, I cant believe she was there !!! :0) Somebody did something wonderful for my family... a gentleman that my sister works with had a brick placed at a very old historical hotel in Ohio with my moms name and date of birth and date of death. He told us that "Now your mom is a part of history". He also did the same very thing here at a location in St. Petersburg Fl.. where I live. I am going to go there this week to see it. Such a generous gift.. Hugs to all....
  4. When will it stop?? A very good friend of mine just lost her grandfather to cancer a few months ago. I just spoke with her a few minutes ago and now her Godfather has been diagnosed with terminal cancer and given 2-4 months to live. She is devastated to say the least. I am just so angry that this is happening and wonder when the hell is it going to stop? When will the chances of being cured be far better than the chances of not? When will we stop losing our mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, husbands, wifes, etc... Just sooooo very angry. :0(
  5. Be proud of yourself, thats what "moms" do... We put on a brave happy face for our children and keep it together for them. We have to, it's what we do... You will be a great mom and no matter what, your mom will be with you to guide you the entire way. I believe that.
  6. I am so very sorry to hear what you are going through. I want you to know though, that I recently have walked in your shoes, and when I say recently, I mean just four months, almost five months ago. First I want you to believe and know that your son was sent to you as a blessing and he will help you through this. My daughter was only 8 months old when my Mom passed away this past February, and without Rylan, I would have not gone on. I would have never gotten out of bed, I would have never stepped another foot out the door. My mom, like yours, was my entire world...my best friend. My family sounds almost like yours. My dad and I never really got along, my sisters and I - well, just not that much in common either. I am also raising my little girl on my own with a deadbeat father on my hands. Please do whatever you can to spend every moment you can with your mom. I know that it's hard and its hard to keep yourself together when you are with her, but it's important that you never have any regrets. I dont want you to regret not spending as much time as you can with her, and having her spend as much time with her grandson as possible. My mom was diagnosed at Christimas time and was only given two months to try to fight this disease. It was awful and Im still mad as hell at everything and God himself for taking her from me. SHe was my rock and the only one there for me. Please email me any time... even just to vent or for advice (if I can help, I will !!!) I just want you to know that what you are feeling is okay... Its normal to be angry, sad, overwhelmed, etc etc etc... Remember, your son is going to be your Godsend. I know it's hard right now, but trust me when I say, he will get you through another day. I am praying that a miracle happens and things turn for the better for you and your mom. Please know that I am thinking of you both. Many many hugs.....
  7. Hi there Randy! I just wanted to say "kudos" to you for always trying to see a brighter and "funnier" side (if you will to things) You make me smile. Hope you are okay!!! Hugs.
  8. On a happier note, I do believe that my daughter was sent from up above to help me through this very difficult time. She is my Godsend and that I DO BELIEVE !!! :0)
  9. Hello everyone ! Today is my daughters first birthday !!! BUT this day also marks the exact day four months ago that I lost my mom. It's such a bittersweet day and all I really wish for is that my mom was here to see how big her granddaughter is and how beautiful she is. All I want is for my mom to celebrate this day with us. I miss her something fierce. I know that everyone says "she is with you, she is looking down upon you, etc" But in all honesty, I havent been finding much comfort in those words. I just want her back in our lives so very much.
  10. 1. My Daughter Rylan's first birthday tomorrow 6/17 ! 2. My cruise to the bahamas July 19th 3. Child Support (lol)
  11. Hi Caren! I just wanted to tell you that I completely relate to what you are saying. It will be four months tomorrow that I lost my mom and I too, feel like I am just going through the motions. The fog is still as thick as ever with for me, no sure sign of thinning anytime soon. We go on because we have to for our families and ourselves but nothing will ever be quite the same, will it? I myself, feel guilty for not crying every day that she has passed, but I think we have to be strong for our families and just do what we can to get by and handle losing such important loved ones. :0( Stay strong! I'm glad to hear that you have such a wonderful support system behind you !
  12. alyssa0323

    My sister

    Hello everyone. I haven't posted much on here lately but I log on every day to read how everyone is doing. I just spoke with my sister a few minutes ago. Now keep in mind, she was with my mom 24/7 from the time she was diagnosed with lung cancer to the day she passed away - two months later. She is of course having a very hard time coping with my mom's passing, as is the rest of the family... but since she was my mom's caretaker and with her sooo much, she blames herself for alot of went wrong with my mom. :0( She just told me that she is thinking about setting up a phone session with a Suzane Northrop (a medium, I guess similiar to John Edwards) for $500 for 45 minutes to try to see if my mom is okay and to see if this person can contact her. I am really skeptical about these sort of things. Has anyone heard of this person and if so, any thoughts? I believe that my sister is having such a hard time that she is desperate for any kind of sign that my mom is okay. I miss my mom so much and I think I believe in some sort of life after death but Im afraid these type of people just take advantage of those of us in this awful grieving process. You would think that these people would offer these readings for FREE and not charge half your life savings to those of us who just lost a loved one. Conflicted.
  13. Hello, as many of you have already read, we found out my mom had lung cancer a few days before Christmas (2008) and we then lost her on 2/17/09. She went through sooo much during those last few months and I am still so very angry and hurt because I feel like she wasn't given an opportunity to even try to fight this cancer. She had not one "good" day in those last two months and I felt like it all happened so quick. So many things left unsaid, so many more times I wanted to tell her I love her, hold her hand, have her spend time with her new granddaughter. Angry as hell and numb to this day. I understand and my heart goes out to you. Out to everyone who is so unfortunate to have been affected by this awful disease.
  14. Wow Marci, I feel like I could have written your post down to every single word. I lost my mom on 2/17/09 and I've been "functioning" because I HAVE to, but I am deeply depressed and mad. My heart goes out to you ...
  15. Thank you all sooo much! I have goose bumps reading all of your posts! I look forward to the day that I can see my mom again and hear her voice, whether it be in my dreams or otherwise.. I need and want to believe that will happen. I just miss her so very much and I know its only been a few months, but it's not getting any easier, anytime soon. xoxo Hugs to everyone!
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