This question really had me thinking. I used to be little Ms. Sunshine, not anymore. I'm a lot more quite then I used to be. It is also very hard for me to relate to others problems, I get very impatient with some of my friends. They get all upset about something and I'm thinking "big deal at least it's not cancer". I'm much more of a loner now. I used to love to listen to live music, I considered myself a "groupy" on my favorite bands, hardly ever missed a concert. I don't do that anymore, the music is too painful to my ears, even with ear plugs. Am I grateful to be alive? Hell yes! I have started trying to do more activity and just recently joined Weight Watchers, I gained about 50 pounds on chemo. My hope is that if I physically feel better, I will mentally feel better. Man this sounds so negative! But that is where I'm at right now.
Dana