Ginny,
I saw your post - I hope you are doing OK. Four months is not a long time and the holidays are tough. I know you have great support - you deserve it - with all the support you give others. I think of Earl every time the Eagles are on television. Maybe it will be the Eagles and the Steelers in the Super Bowl (Earl and I would have had an issue then). I know what you mean about everyone thinking you are doing OK - but your not doing that great when you are alone and have time to think. I still get that sudden sadness sometime when I'm driving or alone at night. It's been 15 months since Ada has been gone - It's so hard to adjust to losing your soul mate - Your were such a good friend to Ada - She really valued your friendship. I hope you find peace and have a good holiday.
Jim