Hi, my name is Donnae, I am 22 y/o. For the past 5 years I had lived 600 miles away from my father, but seen him as often as work would allow. From age 10-18 he raised me alone. He was diagnosed with stage 4 NSCLC (adenocarcinoma) in 9/09. I was with him at Halloween when he started chemo, he handled it well and left me with so much hope. I had to leave a week before Thanksgiving to get back to my job. ON thanksgiving my dad passed out, and went to the hospital, he fractured his back, chemo wasn't helping, but he was still okay. 5 days later he was bed ridden, I flew up on Friday the 4th, he never opened his eyes.... on Sat Dec 5th, his girlfriend woke me up 15min till 4am and told me it was time. I rushed to his side kissed his cheek, held his hand, and told him "it's okay, I'm here".... after that, he never took another breath. I am having a really rough time with all of this. Wanting to pick up the phone and call him, wishing I had stayed there those last 2 weeks, hoping he knew I was there with him even though he never woke up, trying to keep my faith that he is in a better place...etc. I need people to talk to who can relate. I feel like when I keep talking about it with friends and family that it may get to be annoying for them. I am very depressed, and can't stop thinking about it. I'd also like any information on fundraisers or walks for the cure... I want to get involved, closest area to me would be VA Beach or Norfolk VA