March 1, 2010 My husband was diagnosed with squamous lung cancer, It all happened so fast We neither had time to let anything soak in. The family MD had been treating for pneumonia, a trip to urgent care sent us to ER on March 1, The MD called in a pulmonary doctor, she recommended a surgeon, the surgeon tried surgery, found tumor attached to heart, heart went into shock and heart rate went out of this world for about 3 days from the tug on it,The heart doctor scheduled electric shock for the heart but luckily the rate leveled back down the night before shock was scheduled. We were 2 weeks in the hospital at which time the oncologist was called in and radiation started, They tried his first Chemo treatment Wednesday and could only give 1/2 of it because his red blood cells were down, Yesterday was spent at the hospital getting 2 units of blood transfused. I feel like I have lost my best friend, even though I still have him here with me, He's not really here. The doctors have him on antidepressants, anexity, and pain pills, He's weak from not eating, and still doesn't want anything to eat! Drinks 1 ensure a day and I'm really getting worried that, that isn't enough protein for him to gain his strength back especially with these treatments jerking it right back out of him. At times I am really not fit to be his caregiver, because all I can do is go off somewhere and cry, but we're all we each has so I have to try to be strong for the both of us. That is soooo hard to do. I know God is with us, but I'm still only human and can't help the feelings of despair at times. Is there anyone out there with similar experience that has survived these treatments?
