I just want to start off by saying that I am here for you if you need to talk.
My dad is 65 years old and was just diagnoses with Stage IV NSCLC with mets to his brain, kidneys, bone and spine. He has opted out of chemo treatments at the present time and is doing Radiation treatments to prevent the mets in his brain from causing seizures, blindness and a decrease in motor function.
Everyday is a gift but everyday is also a struggle for me. I also have a hard time functioning at work and in my personal life. It seems that all I want to do is sleep and it takes everything I have to get out of bed in the morning and do the things that I have to do. My father tells me "Don't let this rule your life..." But how can I not when I know one day he isn't going to be there.
I completely know what you are going through and would love to chat with you.