Lori,
I know how you feel as far as everything reminding you of Lenny. I lost my dad, and it doesnt matter where I am at or what I am doing, the reminders are everywhere. The one thing everyone keeps saying is time. Dont they say" time heals all wounds." In time we will be able to smile instead of cry when we think of our loved ones.
I think now that the holidays are done thats one less thing you have to worry about. I am sure losing Lenny right before the holidays was twice as devasting. Going back to work will probably be really hard. I hated my first day back. All I wanted to do all day was cry, its strange how everything stayed the same there and our lives are so different now. I remember it felt really strange.
You have been through an awful lot Lori. My heart breaks for you. Watching someone fight for their life is very traumatic. I wish there was something I could say to ease your pain. These boards really have helped me get through some rough days. It helps knowing we are not alone. Stay with us, we can heal and find peace together......