Oh Cindy,
I really wish I could be there to help you. I totally agree with Don. Your family needs to know what you're feeling and going through. How else cam they really help you physically and emotionally if they dont what is really going on. As a daughter I had the need to know everything about my dad's illness. I didnt want to be in the dark about it because I wouldnt know how to help him. When my children went away to college I kept many things from them about their papa, until one day they asked why do I keep important things from them, I told them I didnt think they needed to have that extra worry on their minds, they responded, why he is my papa too. Its strange but they feel left out. Everyone is different so you are the best to decide what your family can handle, you may be surprised. If your family knew it would help you to talk about it, they will be there for you, because all we want to do is help in any way possible. If you are not comfortable talking to friends about it then dont. I think you need to take your " I am Okay" mask off occasionally. Prayers coming your way. Hang in there Dear Cindy.