Hi Joann,
dont ever worry about rambling, we do that often here. Its hard to help you out until you know what type or stage your mom is in, but no matter what you find out please remember there is hope. There are survivors on these boards that will amaze you. One thing I wasnt quite sure of was when the lc was discovered, it almost sounds like last year unless I am not reading your post right. You will see of all the members here someone is bound to have a similiar situation and be able to help you. The thing about abandoning your life, that is so normal. I am lucky my dad lives minutes away. We have all been when your at right now so we know how you feel. Its been 8 months since my dad diagnosis, and I still get very overwhelmed trying to learn as much as I can, I think I probably absorb 20% of what I am reading if that. Well I just wanted to say welcome and let us know when you find out more.