First I want to say that I am sorry for the loss of your husband. I posted an email a few months ago about how I was having a hard time knowing how to deal with my Uncle who was diagnosed in January with lung/brain cancer. I searched many cancer support groups before I finally found the one I liked, this one, and searched many rooms before I found the right one to post my message in. Your message to me was the only one I received and it really, really meant a lot to me what you said. I never got back to saying Thank You for your advice, so thank you from the bottom of my heart. The reason why I did not RSVP until now was because when I read who the post was from, JoniRobertWilson, it sort of freaked me out and I didn't know what to say really. The reason why it freaked me out was because the only other person we have lost in our family of 35+ that was as shocking as this has all been was my Uncle in 1966 in the Vietnam War. I have always, always felt like even though I never met him that he was my guardian angel, even when I go through my times of feeling faithless I always feel like he is there. His name was Robert Wilson, my family called him Bobby. I couldn't believe it when I saw his name there in my email, what are the chances that the one site and one room I pick to post my message, out of the thousands on the web, that I would receive an email back from a person with the same name as my guardian angel! It really blew me away. As the days passed by after I received your email, my Uncle grew more and more ill and unfortunately passed away July 12th. I keep hearing all the time about people I know who are being diagnosed with some form of cancer, it is very unsettling and disturbing to me to wake up and realize the amount of people who have this disease. My best friends' father in law was JUST diagnosed with the same cancer my Uncle had and given the same prognosis. It makes me so angry and so sad because I now know what they're going to have to endure and I don't wish it upon my worst enemy. Yes my Uncle smoked for many years, but the autopsy showed that his lungs were in excellent shape for a smoker and that it was probably his environment that caused it. We grew up very close to a nuclear power plant and he also worked at GM his whole life. Our bodies weren't meant to endure the toxins we take in everyday, I think that is what is going on in this world and why the cancer rate keeps doubling, tripling, and on and on.... Anyhow, I know I can't know now why it did happen, but I just always wonder and ponder and wish he were here. I hope that you are doing as well as you possibly can and that you can take comfort in the people around you that love you, the memories you have with your husband, and the beauty that remains in the world that we are still here to enjoy and appreciate while our loved ones watch over us. Take care of yourself, Aimee
