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Add me to the list above. I am so sorry for your loss. Cyndy

You have my deepest sympathies. My Tim is gone too ( since 12/04). Please know you are not alone. I grieve for all of us. My best to you and your family. C.

Wow! I have been checking in only once in a while and was surprised to see this thread. I became very very attached to this site when we learned of Tim's dilema with the disease. I think I would check in more often if Ginny's idea came to fruition. Just my thoughts on it. Cyndy

Hello Sue. I don't come here often, just check in occasionally, and identified with your post here. It has been 15 months for me now. Sometimes I go along so well, and then there are times like last night when I remember he's not here and is not coming back. My tears flow, but it isn't as often as at first. I purchased a book titled " Grief's Courageous Journey" which has helped me along the way. I'm to the point of wanting to move on, opening new doors for myself, without forgetting my past. I am thankful he chose me for his wife and that we were able to have our years together. Coming to this site and other sites like widownet.com helps me realize that I am not alone. For some reason that is important to me. My best to you - you are not alone. Cyndy

Hi peggy. I understand what you mean. I have to have a small procedure done in the hospital soon and realized Tim won't be in the room with me like he always was for me before. My daughter has offered to be there. You're right, it keeps going on, but I notice it feels different as time goes by. I will be able to handle it because I am discovering that my life is in a new phase. I am beginning to open new doors. Love, Cyndy

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[6. There is also Social Security sex...that's when you get some once a month but it's not enough to live on.... ] I've also experienced #1,2,3 and 4. Thanks for the giggle on a day when I'm feeling under the weather. C.

My favorite show! Cyndy

I am very sorry for your loss Cheryl. I was born and raised in Johnstown, NY and your post interested me. I am thinking of you and your family. Cyndy

Really hoping this will work for Lucie. Tim was getting prepared to start it, and we were doing the folic vitamins and vitamin B injections, but he turned out to be too weak due to other complications. We had to cancel the prescription for the Alitma. My best to both of you and I pray for success. Cyndy

I love her! That's the kind of dog I'd want if I had to have one. What is their temperament? I've gone through so many dogs I can't believe I would ever do it again. Cyndy Timothy Patrick: 9/15/38-12/19/04

Beth, you are going through everything I did and you are doing the right thing. It has only been five weeks for you. It has now been 13 months for me. I can only tell you that it's one foot ahead of the other one step at a time. Another way I have of dealing with it is to write letters to him. It just makes me feel better when I need it. I feel he knows I'm writing to him. Just know you are normal and you are not alone. There are many of us going through it. And we all respond differently. love, Cyndy

Neat Shelly! Next time I'm lying in the snow making my snow angel I'll think of your message before opening my mouth to catch the snow flakes! Cyndy

Thanks Ann. I make a snow angel every year - actually have made two this year. Cyndy

On Tim's report card in the 1940's there was a place to give a mark under the health section : "carries a handkerchief at all times" So he learned his lesson well and was never without one. Now I find it very comforting to carry his handkerchiefs with me, one in every flannel shirt of his that I wear. I shall never get rid of them. Any seniors out there who got marked on carrying a clean handkerchief when in school? Cyndy

We gained 8 minutes daylight today! (January 5)

Just want to add my Happy New Year to all here. Improved health is my wish for all here, no matter what the problem. This site continues to be the best! Love, Cyndy

Pat, I am so sorry. I know what you're going through. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Cyndy

Oh Charlie. Hiccups were like one of the worst things my husband had. We even went to the emergency room once seeking help. No one could tell us what caused them. They were actually hurting him they were so hard. The doctor finally gave him some pills for it, but I can't remember what they were. He actually grew to fear hiccuping. I googled hiccups and we tried every natural remedy we could find. One involved lying on the floor and massaging certain parts of the body - I remember behind the ears was one. Sounds funny now, but he said it helped. So I sympathise with you - they are truly no joke. Cyndy

Hello friends. Today marks 12 months since my special man passed from us. My family is honored that the teachers where I work sponsored today at our local PBS radio station in memory of Tim. They are announcing it four times during the day along with some wonderful words about him. Tonight we will release our balloons at the cemetery and then gather for egg nog and wonderful memories in my living room around my little tree. I am thankful I am able to feel this positive during this difficult season. I wish everyone a happy holiday and a new year full of miracles. Cyndy

Tim was the best. He made me what I am today. He had a tremendous influence on me and I respected him very much, as did all his friends. He taught me how to enjoy life and how not to take myself so seriously. I owe so much to him. We lost him one year ago on the 19th of December. Cyndy

My good news is that I had a wonderful day yesterday with my family. It would have been Tim and my 45th anniversary, and I was able to celebrate our life together with our kids and grandkids. I took them ALL out to supper (like Tim and I used to do) and we finished the evening by lauching a beautiful snowflake balloon at the cemetery in the dark. This may sound weird, but it was wonderful as we watched it slowly rise up and up until it was just a sparkle like a star. Couldn't help but share the joy I feel this morning. Cyndy Timmy P 9/15/38-12/19/04 His legacy goes on and on and on and…

The cookbook was a great way for me to memoralize Tim for our first Thanksgiving without him. For years I made his favorite three bean salad just for him (he asked for it every year). But the rest of our clan really didn't have a taste for it so I didn't make it this year. Instead I gave each of my kids a copy of the cookbook with the recipe in it that I submitted, a great way for us to keep the memory. The kids loved the idea.

Well Peggy, here it is two days later and I hope you're a lot better now. I checked in today after being away for a while, mainly because I feel like you did two days ago and needed to read some posts from this wonderful board. I could feel the warmth as I read down this thread and now I feel better. Lost Tim 11 months ago tomorrow. Cyndy

Just received mine too. They're wonderful. Thanks for all your work! Cyndy