Hi, my name is Misty. I'm here becuz my Grandfather was just told this morning (6/16) that he has lung cancer and appx 4-5 months to live. He was told with chemo he might have an additional 4-5 months at the most.
I'm at a loss - for words, for emotion, feelings, everything !! I called and talked to him earlier this evening in the hospital and he seemed almost his normal self. It hit me pretty hard when he said he didn't want chemo or anything else...just to live while he could. I know my mind is cool with that - it's his decision and if faced with it myself...I'd say the same thing. My heart, however, is another story.
My mind came home after the call and started looking up everything I could on the net and my heart stopped me - heck, I don't even know any of the details - what kind, how bad (other than that it's in both lungs and is NOT from smoking but from the colon cancer he had two years ago).
If his choice is no grand gestures than what's the point of gathering info ? All I know for sure is I'm not ready to say good bye !! How do I cope - now afraid that the next time the phone rings it could be "that call" ??
I'm 38 but I feel 10 right now.....
Anyway, I just wanted to say Hello...I have a feeling I'm gonna be a regular on here.
Thanks for listening - well ok - reading. Guess I wasn't at such a loss for "words" was I ??
Misty
